OTHER NOTES:

MARTINE had realised too late - that even though she had won the fight that day, upon the chair...she had 'lost the war' so to speak - my attitude towards her had changed radically - once set upon the chair again - I wouldn't let her touch me...i refused to be 'one' again.

TODDY and RIMINGTON were working behind the scenes to reunit us as children - hence the 'sex magic' programming...whereupon GILL in his male alter...could pull back HENRY...and MARTINE inside his head, could experience that 'oneness' again whilst he had his GAS LAMP lit by a CLASS 'A' DRUG...but GILL was the main and front personality...hated me like shit, for want of a better word...hence the abuse that was to follow and for so many years...MARTINE kept him 'social' in relation to not actually killing me off...that is all one can say.