MARTINE knows that MARK R 'lost the videotape' of HENRI's visit to her NY flat.

No wonder.

She wants the world to know how much he felt about her.

I should have written down what I said - but in retrospect....it sounds a bit like what TOMLINSON used to spiel out...but not corny in the way that he did it...he used to sing corny love songs...before abusing her out of her mind and GILL's body.

I simply told her that I loved her more than she would ever know...I had always loved her in this way...there was no other...there could be no other....there was only her - and I was truthful - I had reached 'ground zero' - this was the 'woman' that I had been in love with and for my entire life - from the day that I had met 'her' as a tiny toddler.

In retrospect, it was 'soul thing'.

I had to concentrate upon MARTINE and not see MARTIN for a second - dressed up as a woman...and I managed it.

ROZ had been mortally upset by MARTINE...she was the most gorgeous, vulnerable 'feminine essence' of a woman that you could ever hope to encounter.

The FRENCH call it 'that obscure object of desire' and that is what MARTINE projected....and HENRY attained it - he got his 'lost love'...after MARTINE his heart was cold...he 'lost feeling'...and I lost feeling...I never loved as HENRY had loved MARTINE as a toddler...he would have given his life for her.

He did...I put myself over MARTIN GILL's body - in that beach-hut to prevent OBAMA from shooting him...I would have rather taken the bullet.

I explained it to MARTIN's front alter in this way..."you see, if I had died...if you really want to see this in a demonic and narcissistic sort of way...then I would have been happy because all remote-viewers do not fear death - to fly free of the body is real freedom and happiness...and if I had stayed in my body and seen MARTIN GILL's body dead on the bed...that would have killed my emotional, abused woman alter 'EMILY'....she would have been beside herself..."