EMILY wasn't 'in love' with the BEAUTIFUL SHELL that MARTIN GILL had become...she was 'HENRI' - HENRI and EMILY - the two had become 'one' but without memory...

MARTIN GILL on the other hand - had become an entirely SPLIT personality.

HENRI had to accept that he had to be 'feminine' - to be 'EMILY'...it was the worst thing for him...to have to accept that he couldn't behave as a 'little boy growing up' anymore...but he fitted it in, in ways...anyway...

He still felt like a 'man in drag'....but he quite liked being 'female'...it got him in touch with so many things...and eventually he really accepted it...

MARTINE didn't at all...MARTIN gave her no avenue to do so.