Last night some weird extracts of memories came back...and I keep on going back to SOLIHULL and the children who were to come back as adults- upon the other side of the mirror...and this time it was the turn of MICHAEL PHILPOTTS who had joined the police - as his father had done, as far as I am aware...he wanted to buy my services from COLLIE in order to break into ill cult systems...and I knew of a way to do it...I could hack in through the digitalised images - the programming in of them...I have no idea how now but then you have to be able to 'go into the left brain' for want of a better word then direct what you do with the 'energy' under a telescope...and I could see individual 'bits' of a computer program energy by that point...and I could manipulate it as I wanted...rather like re-arranging a jigsaw puzzle...re-arranging the electronic flow along the circuitry as it were...

Secondly, I remembered SOUP...and GILL showing his mother a hand-blender (this had been a tip to myself from HELEN RODWAY who had bought me one for XMAS - very generous)...and so at MANCHESTER...I used to make vegetable soup - GILL used to put a knob of butter in it and then he could eat 'green vegetables' for some reason...his mother then told her network of friends and the whole of that SOLIHULL network got a lot healthier...thanks to a bit of simple technology and the 'ear to the ground' commonsense of HELEN RODWAY...I remember GILL taking a recipe from his mother on the phone - from her childhood - which he was then to call 'MUVEEN OF TUVEEN' perhaps based upon 'Maureen of the Soup Tureen'...his favourite...and it contained SHALLOTS...we had some problems finding them in the local supermarket at that point...

...and so it came as no surprise to find that the blog of note was based around GILL's mother...his genealogical research...although I am sure that the names have been changed...the grandmother is his mother's mother...the photos:

http://esmeelynne.blogspot.com/

OTHER NOTES:

I then remembered being with MR ICKE in an MI6 room...and explaining to him what those sad videos of the couple talking, were about...I had created them in a very young child alter...who was watching EMILY and how she smoked too much...and how she kept on disappearing and how their hearts kept on being broken again and again...pulled apart again and again...and that was why I had to become 'existential' - to live for the moment...as I had said to GILL in CLACTON...I was happy for the moment because I was with him, the sun was shining...CLACTON people on the street were interesting...I could be happy in the present...one shouldn't project into the past or future...that was the only way to be happy - but he didn't seem capable of that one...perhaps he could remember too much whilst I could remember very little at all...

I told MR ICKE (we were alone) that I could 'take him up' because he was 'one of us - a watcher' and so he agreed and so I found out his password (from MARK R) used it and we 'flew together' for a while...I then got the computer in the room to register this password so that when we came out of the trance, I could set him free...he could go up any time that he chose...

I also told him how painful it was - to have a 'husband' but only to be allowed to see him in the above way...I also knew that they would murder him in the end...and that this was only bearable to me when I 'flew' because then you saw the whole of the picture...and you knew about souls and past lives and everything...and there was no 'sadness' in that domain, no 'death'...you would meet again and everything would be all right...it was just that back in your body it was so hard and - then I began to cry and I couldn't stop and MR ICKE let me cry on his shoulder...and he thought 'I'll do something about it'...I have no idea what he did...