I paid the water bill at BARCLAYS BANK…having stood in line for a while…watching the BBC NEWS team report upon the ROYAL WEDDING…and all you could see was huge bundles of GREENERY going into the ABBEY…and I started to smile - just how big was the ABBEY…because it must be beginning to look like a jungle in there now…we were told that the GREENERY was something like Wisteria and a couple of other things…with lots of white flowers…everything ‘in season’…

It is a pity I don’t have a TV to keep up with these things because it was one strange pantomime - an earthy sort of fairytale…and I feel sorry for KATE to have to go through with it all…even though of course, she wants to do so…there are other pressures around upon her…not least the fact that she used to be run by the MOSSAD and had agreed to her ‘mission’ whatever it was…although one can say that SCARLETT topped the MOSSAD and so who runs her now…well, who knows?

I was then reminded of GREENIE talking about that children’s programming book which had been used to program those like him and myself as OUTSIDE PLANTS…in our elementary schools…the rest of the class had their plant grown indoors by the window…but our plants were put outside and grew taller in the outdoors…weird…I am sure that this story has repercussions with the OUTDOOR foliage that is now going into the ABBEY…

This isn’t going to be a horticulturally hideous HOT-HOUSE PLANT wedding…one hopes…with all of that OUTDOOR foliage and TREES…well, that is ‘original’ isn’t it?

…what does it mean symbolically?

Anyway, I got the date wrong…the wedding is on the 29TH APRIL and not on ‘Thursday’…yes you can make great big whopping mistakes when you don’t own a TV and rarely see much ‘news’ at all…

Keeping the mass media at a distance…is the way that I like it, nowadays though…much healthier…

…and to draw an analogy:

…having to deal with LAING as her mind control slave ‘nursemaid’ at DARTINGTON…if I had known that she had severe ‘emotional/personality problems’ because of being a ROCKEFELLER CUCKOO…I would have been able to DISTANCE myself and to act appropriately…

Being able to DISTANCE yourself is a MODERN-DAY SKILL that one has to learn or go under…

…and one can apply it everywhere…across the board…think twice, count to ten…distance yourself…see the whole thing as the CHINESE would say - the largest circle, then smaller and smaller circles until you have homed in on what the ‘problem‘ is - or what the ‘resolution to the issue‘ is…HAVE PATIENCE etc etc…

I used to envy DALDRY hugely…when people were massively rude to his face…and they were now and then…he would never reply….he would simply stare…and think…that used to be enough to put most aggressors off…if it didn’t and he couldn’t think of a proper reply at the time…he simply wouldn’t speak, ignore them and then walk off…

…and somehow the above - always made him look as if he were ‘in charge’ and ‘in control’…and whoever was attacking him, ‘powerless’ and ‘nasty’…

I envied him…because the evil mice would invariably get enraged if I tried that one with them…LAING following me around - screaming at me, for example - if I ignored her…and I wondered how I might be able to do what ’DALDRY did’ and get the same effects?

In retrospect…it is quite a challenge…one has to debunk such people in public and in front of an audience…but only when one has distanced oneself and one knows how to handle the verbal conflict and to resolve the matter, there and then….and that takes quite a bit of thought, beforehand…hey, maybe that was DALDRY’s speciality? Maybe he enjoyed that sort of ‘game’…

For example - within the last couple of weeks - leading up to our degree show…LAING was on my back…taking up hours of my time, screaming with rage then threatening ‘tears’ about her ‘real parents’ whom she had been told that it was possible to contact by a social worker and an agency… the upshot of all of this - was that she never went to try and find out - ‘after all that’…precisely timed, I would have thought…to create maximum aggravation…because JADE knew full well who her ‘real family’ was…AMADEUS had told her.

She used to be able to keep the conversation going for almost an hour…with her ranting and raving, umming and ahhing…whilst I tried to get away…because I had given her every possible bit of advice that I could…which was promptly thrown back into my face…for example:

You should take your adoptive parents with you…in case something terrible has happened to your birth parents…what if one of them is dead or in prison…you need support if you find out something that you might not want to know…

LAING began to shout with rage…that her adoptive family were USELESS…that they didn’t understand ANYTHING…and NO WAY…

I then gently told her that Social Services would have VETTED her adoptive family and that they would know the score….

To have LAING butting in, talking over me and start screaming at me again…words to the effect of ‘DO YOU THINK THAT THEY ARE ANIMALS - ARE YOU CALLING MY FAMILY ANIMALS…THAT I SHOULD TAKE THEM TO A VET - LIKE A DOG THAT NEEDS AN INJECTION???’

I then said coldly and quietly that there was another definition for the word VET…which I am quite sure that LAING knew…she was just ‘trying it on’…but I had to put up with it…because I wasn’t ‘sure’…was she that stupid/mad or not? Nobody had said 'JADE's not normal - she needs help' and so one simply had to take it that her behaviour was 'normal' and deal with her as a 'normal human being'...and the context of an art college, made it even more difficult...'artists' are known to be tempermental and a 'bit mad' aren't they?

Now if I had simply walked out of the flat and into a public arena…other people would have LAUGHED at her reaction…and that would have solved the problem for me, temporarily at any rate - it would have 'closed her down fast'…but it wouldn't have resolved the issue...would it?

The main point here is that I couldn’t distance myself because AMADEUS had screwed with me….told me under mind control to be her ‘nursemaid’…and that nobody at college had told me - what SHEILA had told them…that LAING was basically emotionally retarded…if I had known that….it would have been far easier to distance…and I hate to say this but in a similar way to the Se;phardic advice along the lines of ‘KEEP THE FENCE BETWEEN YOU AND THE BULL‘…in order to get a perspective upon her erratic and often quite violent behaviour…and that was upon this side of the mirror…not the other.

I keep on typing LAING…but her real name was JANE GREEN…apologies to those called LAING everywhere…

R D LAING was one of the best authors upon ‘the mind and psychology of a human being’ that I have ever read…

“…which is probably one of the reasons why the ill chose the LAING family as her adoptive one” says GILL…

I see - a subliminal thing…to say to those who have read R D LAING…she was ‘brought up well to understand that type of thing’…

…whereas the reality was - that she had terrorised the entire family…