...all I 'knew' was that the ill kept on programming and reprogramming people with different roles and scripts until - the whole structure couldn't hold...

The ill didn't know it....they figured that the symbolic 'left brain' could hold a limitless amount of ill cult 'crap' but it cannot...by the time that you are 40 years old...it begins to 'discharge' the crap (garbage 'in' garbage 'out' - a computer reference - whereas the ill hoped that they could continue to do 'garbage in, garbage in' continuously to the 'left brain'....and this results in very frightening 'flashbacks' for most people...after the age of 40 years old...desperate people in fact....not willing to talk about their nightmares which they discard as 'fantasies'....