I went into the library this afternoon to borrow a few more books and two were 'unrecognised items' upon the self-service desk:

HELL ISLAND
by MATTHEW REILLEY

and:

THE HARDEST TEST
by SCOTT QUINNELL (I remember reading that one with interest, upon the other side of the mirror circa 2003)

Anyway I went to the main desk and waited behind a group of boys and a man...then I noticed a woman in TURQUOISE cardigan approach the desk from the right...the canteen area and I flashbacked to RIMINGTON setting up a nasty 'scenario' with this woman...she would try to push in front of me and then we would have a swearing/slanging match...and get evicted from the library...so I wondered if I could handle it with 'body language' and no words spoken?

When it came for my turn to be served...I simply put my two books (see above) upon the desk, added my card and the woman to the right said FUCKING CUNT loudly under her breath...I then tapped in GILL's masonic finger tip code, lightly upon the desk and the woman snarled 'AND RUDE TOO'...I ignored her completely - so did the assistant who had had her eyes down throughout...putting things away behind the till and so she didn't know who the woman was referring to...herself or me...and as I never caught the woman's eye or appeared to register her presence at all...she gave up.

Anyway, two of her friends came over...two polite middle-class types and asked if she was okay...she replied that she just wanted a print-out, that was all...and as i was leaving she asked if it had printed but it hadn't...as I was walking out I then saw a MENTAL HEALTH NURSE coming from the direction of the computers and figured...'i think that I know the game here'...

The woman wasn't drunk and nor did she appear to be 'intentionally abusive'...no real awareness...almost like TOURETTES DISEASE...however she was perfectly polite to her ENGLISH friends, no swearing there...she had quite a strong IRISH accent...and she reminded me of JOANNE COLLIE for some reason, in looks...and that made me wonder...was she a MENTAL HEALTH PATIENT...was she on OLANZAPINE...because I remember that this drug made one feel impatient and panicky...disorientated...it had no 'good effects' whatsoever...therefore in a queue...that would come out...hence the swearing...so this woman had responded by becoming frightened and aggressive whilst having to wait...and I was supposed to be on OLANZAPINE at this point of time too...and so two 'olanzapine slaves in the ring'...CCTV videoed having a verbal slanging match...that was what the ill cult had planned...how disgusting. What human vermin the ill cult are...

However, I remembered in time, didn't rise to the bait...both the assistant and myself ignored her and the whole thing passed off quickly and easily...

Pushing the boat out a bit...maybe this woman had worked for MI5 in IRELAND at some point...i am pushing the boat out here but why else would I be picking up COLLIE and 'high up in intelligence'...to offend one of the ill...end up on PETER BRUFF etc etc...not a 'stupid woman' at all...i was picking up that much...and she knew GILL's tapping signal immediately...straight off...she didn't mean that I was being impatient and therefore 'rude' by tapping...because I was doing it gently, lightly with an iregular 'butterfly effect' of a movement...not an 'impatience' signal at all...just 'playing' to pass the time...she was reacting to it because she KNEW THE CODE and let's face it, I didn't...i was playing like a 'monkey' tentatively...to find out what effect it would have on her...would it 'close her down' or not? It didn't...she stated emphatically: "how RUDE"...even though the gesture itself was purposively not rude...you couldn't actually hear my finger tips upon the desk and the main reason that people TAP upon desks, is to be HEARD...it is an 'impatience signal' when you can hear it...but when you cannot...what is it? It is a VISUAL signal - and it means something entirely different...

I was touching the desk in the same way that a PIANO TEACHER would touch keys that they didn't want to actually press, slowly and deliberately but very lightly so as not to seem 'odd'... as in 'you play this, this and this note' without a sound - soundless.

So what does that TAPPING SIGNAL using those particular fingers mean - eh, GILL?

"It means FUCK OFF" he replied. Anything else? "...and DIE" he added. So how high up in 'intelligence' was she? He doesn't know precisely but above the level of officer...

OTHER NOTES:

PETER BRUFF ward...most people were immensely polite to all and sundry...funny how one has a stereotype of MENTAL HEALTH UNITS as 'bedlam' i.e. as containing potentially violent and abusive people...but that wasn't the case at all...quite the opposite...everybody knew that they had to act as a group...most did, at any rate...in order to help each other to survive in there and get out at some point...without being severely cautioned for swearing and 'bad behaviour', locked in one's room or ECT'd for example...or given even worse drugs by the psychiatrists...yes, PETER BRUFF was a bit like PUBLIC SCHOOL or that CATHOLIC GIRLS' SCHOOL for 'boarders', wasn't it?

The threat of 'punishment' if you misbehaved and so generally nobody did at all....the main 'danger zone' upon PETER BRUFF was if a patient was 'triggered' by something...began to panic...which could potentially lead to violence as well as panicking the other patients...and as a 'network'...i can see how that could blow up, in seconds...so the staff were always on 'tenterhooks' to make sure that it didn't happen...and it didn't - not whilst I was there, at any rate.

However, the 'civility factor' is an interesting one...only one or two people managed a swear word and they didn't do it often...every patient that I was to meet upon that ward, had been 'brought up well'...mainly working class people...proper standards...and I wonder now - if that was one of the things about these people that the ill couldn't stand?

You see I can remember JACQUI CARROLL giving me a quick synopsis of Northern working class history at DARTINGTON...when I asked her about VIZ COMIC and the 'fat slags'...surely she found that cartoon really offensive...i would...thinking about GRANDPA and GRANDMA CLAYTON...JACQUI informed me that this was a generation that had died out a long time ago...'fat slags' was the order of the day, up NORTH...she had known so many of them...she found them funny...and they were 'feminists' in their own way...they got what they wanted out of life (in terms of their minimal options)...a 'good time' at the weekend...get drunk with your mates who look out for you...eat a load of hot delicious chips, afterwards...shag who you fancy and do not worry about 'romance'...men aren't worth it, sort of thing...'best friends for life' arm in arm, walking each other home - to JACQUI, the 'fat slags' were now a 'way of life' up North...

OTHER NOTES:

swearing on PETER BRUFF ward...one of the nurses...whom I recognised from the military...circa 2003...was to tell myself and a couple of other patients that SWEARING was now against the law...yes, I had taken that one on board, before being sectioned, luckily...but I suppose that he was making sure...because he probably knew the side-effects of OLANZAPINE and was 'helping' us...avoid getting arrested.

Some drugs are what is called something like de-inhibitors...and therefore your tongue can run away with you and then you say what you are thinking/feeling...that is how evil a drug, OLANZAPINE is...

Nobody really wants to know what the person beside them is thinking and feeling (about your proximity and 'relationship' to them)...believe me, as a remote-viewer...you really don't want to know...99% of the time. (Although this was a 'big growing up factor' for all of us at GREEN TOWER...we could 'read each other's thoughts' and so we policed our own minds...so that we didn't offend others. I suppose that this made us 'better people' in the end. We taught ourselves 'good habits' in terms of thinking about others, like ourselves - who could 'read minds' and this could have had a bad as well as a good effect - it certainly 'bonded' us all).

Anyway, to be made to literally 'speak your mind, without thinking' upon a drug such as OLANZAPINE (when you are stressed out in a public situation)...is possibly one of the most evil things that I can think of...how to become a 'social pariah' almost immediately...and termed 'mentally ill' by everybody...if you put the whole of the UK on OLANZAPINE...can you imagine what would result?

WATERBOARDS take note...and TEST for this type of chemical...the easy way to create ANARCHY in this country.

So yes, I took the ex-military personnel PERSON's advice upon 'not swearing' on PETER BRUFF ward...I mean 'getting arrested for swearing upon PETER BRUFF ward' would have been the limit, wouldn't it?

...and that is what had been planned, says GILL....as another 'option' for those who had access to the CCTV...more 'fun and games' for the WOLF PACK eh?