A SCIENTIST (GILL) and a NOVELIST (ROZ) write fiction in different ways...

ROZ revered the SOUL...back to the earth, the soil...basic human relations and the working out of them (without anything really terrible happening - which is what happens in most people's lives, unless they are very unlucky - only the 'normal things' of life)...the sophisticated interplay of human relations...the love, the caring...the community.

GILL revered KNOWLEDGE...he wanted to analyse what was going on in his life and the world...in order to break out of that CIRCLE OF CONFINEMENT which had him imprisoned.

I wanted to do the same as GILL - therefore I preferred that type of 'novel' more.

Both are equally important - ROZ was writing about SOUL...my goal in life was to work out why we were in chains...

...and that is why from my early teenage years I saw 'words' as a 'toolbox'...as WORDSMITHERY...like a 'trade'.

TODDY had taught me to see the whole of MI7 as that - what he didn't tell me, was that i was to become a SLAVE of it.

I used to see words...and I still do - in the way that I used to do when I was writing a 'novel' or 'fiction' or a 'poem' for the ill CULT (because it has got to be 'good' or you are strung up by your neck) - and not a blog, such as this - where I just spew out my next thought...not spew, upon reflection...I BREATHE it all out...the obnoxious gas of the ill cult, which has infected my body and mind for so long...with every BREATH which I breathe OUT through my nose...i get rid of their 'deadly gas'...

Yes, i used to see language - when I took the time to 'not care' what word comes next - in the opposite vein:

I would spend, sometimes hours...wondering what word should come next...during essay writing for school...I was looking at writing as a 'scientific jigsaw puzzle and every word modified the next'...and when I was sure that I had 'got it' for a school essay - it was like a 'completed jigsaw puzzle' to me. A LINEAR jigsaw puzzle.