I now have to type in RED: dicern
I now have to type in GREEN: latien
I have had some emotionally disturbing dreams over the past couple of nights...about people betraying me in various ways...and once i have woken up...the upset vanishes...as I remember that I am no longer living at ST BERNARDS ROAD etc etc...because every dream is located in a place that I formerly lived in...and i look at this flat and feel grateful that I am the 'survivor' of that shipwreck...and my family has also 'moved on'...even though ED is still living in BLACKHEATH...that was the one place that wasn't bad...something 'special' about that place...

Anyway, last night I dreamt that SUE WHALLEY and LISA came to talk with me...LISA kept apologising but I was in no mood for apologies...what difference did it make now? It was all in the past. I didn't want to be reminded of anything - 'not bothered'.