Yes, when i look back on it all now...when GILL started to go 'feminist' - I distrusted him more than I had ever done in my entire life...a leopard doesn't change its spots now does it?

Boys brought up today, to respect women and from the beginning...one can trust them...but those who were brought up in the old sexist era...can you really trust an old dog to learn new tricks?

Some men were naturally not sexist...but others were...

GILL had been brought up by his father to see all women as 'evil' - even more so than themselves, despite being self-acknowledged SATANISTS as part of their local synagogue.

He hated his wife - despite being the 'best of the bunch' in NY at that time - within his 'class' and money band...a marriage that was doomed from the start. Although she appeared to be far more intelligent and likeable than CAROLINE....it wasn't a recipe for success - was it?

He ended up seeing her and the 'family' every fortnight - despite living in close proximity - whilst working at GREEN TOWER.

Anyway, I then realised why I didn't want GILL to change...you see 'UNDERSTANDING' equals POWER.

MARK R was continually whining to GILL:

"MARTI I don't understand you and I really want to understand you...let me in"

If you can UNDERSTAND another person you can CONTROL them.

The very idea of criminal GILLY BOY understanding women made me go quite 'cold'.

So my basic answer to him ran along the lines of 'I was asking for RESPECT not UNDERSTANDING'...because I wanted to keep a 'lid' on him - sit on him, in his little demonic box.