Yesterday evening…I got worked up about a lot of things…not least the fact that I had tried to send all of my NPOWER emails to other email addresses for safe-keeping as in evidence, if necessary, for a court case against them. I then realised that this was another stage in the ill cult game. My email box wouldn’t forward any mail to other addresses…so I had to use ‘reply’ and paste in the addressees…and then YAHOOMAIL slowed down to the point that it took forever…because yes, there were that many emails to send…about 350...but I managed it in the end…I also remembered telling SCARLETT that I would be finished by around 4pm and I was…how odd…yes, I knew precisely how I had programmed the future and what to expect…

Anyway, the above made me extremely angry…because of a go-slow internet connection which I knew was the work of ELIZA MANNINGHAM-BULLER’s mob…plus a browser ‘police dragnet’ for those who wanted all of the information (which had been put together by SCARLETT’s mob) and kept freezing my laptop…didn’t improve my temper…the pettiness of the people involved in this ‘game’ against me…yes, I kept on losing it and swearing coldly at them…knowing that ‘intelligence’ would pick up every word…they know that if they continue to hound me - that I will have programmed their futures after this game ends…they know that this does not bode well for them, to put it mildly…yet they continue to do what they do…like idiot robots…

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On top of that - I had just got back the memories of how I had really felt about GILL as a young boy…and this was all about me - and not him…as well as many other girls programmed by the ill cult…my sister and GILL’s sister, for example….

I was a much more intelligent child and a stronger one…

I had been told to pretend that I was a little boy…

I had begun to believe that I was a little boy…

Yet GILL got all of the preferential treatment…and I was continually ‘put down’ - and told off - even though this nasty little boy kept on attacking me, in an insane way…

This was what was happening in my home life too - my brother HUMPHREY who was a year younger than me - was doing the same thing…a double-whammy, then.

This all ended up with GILL being made my ‘master’ and I was supposed to be subservient - a ‘slave’…the unfairness of it all…the inequality…I was raging inside as a child…and it was all about GENDER.

I can now see why my sister was held back two years at school…you see, as a young child, she truly believed that you could choose your gender and she told anybody who would listen that she was a little boy and that she would NOT wear dresses or skirts. You can see why. She had figured it all out - boys got preferential treatment in the ill cult and girls got turned into slaves. She wanted to be a ‘master’ and not a ‘slave’.

Now if I had been sitting with the oldest BROOKS brother instead of GILL, as a toddler, in front of those programmers - things might have been different…because he was much stronger than me and maybe he was more intelligent, I do not know - I never knew him that well but the point is this - if he had been naturally brighter and stronger…I would have seen the ‘logic’ behind it all…as it was, with GILL…I could not.

GILL picked up on my fury at him - because of his incessant physical attacks, his attempts to be ‘master’…and my continual rebuffing of him…and subsequent mastery of him…he then translated it (with the encouragement of the programmers) to this:

“She hates me because I am ISLAMIC/WORKING CLASS”

No, that is not true - I hated you because of your violence and your belief that you were in some way ‘better’ than myself when you were not - and that was easily demonstrated so why couldn’t anybody see it? That is what I wanted to know, as a very young child…

I was raging incoherently against GENDER INEQUALITY and DISCRIMINATION.

So in short, I began to feel like that ‘raging child’ again, yesterday…and believe me - it hurts…look at what happened to my sister because of the above…look at what happened to GILL’s sister…how she beat him up for putting on her school uniform…how he began to rape her under mind control as a young teenager…how she got him back for it in later life…it is all horror.

I wonder which little boy - ROZ had to sit next to…what about SONIA? I do not suppose that this little boy fared any better than GILL…maybe it was GILL, for all I know…maybe all of the girls beat him up…no wonder he grew up with such a ‘complex’…there he was, trying on his sister’s school uniform because he ‘identified’ with the girls in some way…perhaps he wanted to be one…MR RUSSELL had told me as much, about his own young life…so it was probably quite common…

It is all about GENDER CONFUSION.

It is also about creating DIVISIONS between boys and girls - at a very young age.

So when GILL kept going on and on about ‘she never loved me’ and how he would never date me openly…and how he always used to keep me under mind control in relation to ‘secret dates’…it was all because of his massive inferiority complex…he figured…she hates me…she thinks I am nothing…those are her real feelings towards me…and I have been taught to be a complete arsehole to her and from the day dot…no relationship possible…they are telling me she is a CLASS ‘A’ DRUG and I am stupid enough to believe it…despite my school telling me that I am the brightest kid around…not to mention the ISLAMIC/JOOISH influence in relation to ‘women/girls are inferior‘…you see how screwed up by the programmers, he was?

I am getting sick of the word ‘programmer’ - they were not scientific…they were insane torturers/murderers/Satanists…off their heads because of their own ill cult ‘programming’.

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Last night GILL showed me a few images…one was of him going into a mosque and talking to a group of Islamic men…they were all Satanists…

GILL and AMADEUS then told me the following:

About 60% of ISLAMIC men believe that they worship the DEVIL.

About 75% of JOOISH men believe that they worship the DEVIL.

About 40% of CHRISTIAN men believe that they worship the DEVIL.

That would include my grandfather CLAYTON then, I suppose as ‘server’ at the local Anglican church - he had been part of the RA CULT.

The figures for women in general, vary - but about 20-30%.

MCDONALD then added that the religions that ask people to go on their faces…the POPE for example (he sometimes prostrates himself upon the ground, in the shape of a cross in front of the alter)…or to touch the ground with their foreheads…Islam for example…are contacting the devil and not G-d.

MCDONALD had asked me to do this without telling me why and asked me how I felt afterwards…I said that it wasn’t a ‘bad’ experience…I simply felt like I was getting in touch with the Earth - but definitely not in touch with G-d. If I wanted to do that…I would look up to the sky…

I then remembered MR D’AJANI’s son reading that DAN BROWN book ‘ANGELS AND DEMONS’ at the MI HOTEL…and suddenly I ‘knew’ what this was all about…

GILL had told me that the Islamics believed that they worshipped the DEVIL and that they were all ‘demons’ accordingly…they saw the JOOS as the ‘chosen people’ and as ANGELS…

Isn’t it laughable?

It is, to the MASONS…because they encourage any religion to join and the resulting discussions exposed most of it…and that is how the above information came out…most men and of just about any religion were aware of the prevailing belief that they actually worshipped the devil and not G-d…that is how far the ill cult had infiltrated mainstream religion…plus the fact that Islamic men tended to believe that they were ‘demons’ opposed to the Jooish men who were ‘angels’ when in point of fact - far more Jooish men believed that they worshipped the devil, than Islamic men.