When I look at the 'needs and wants' of ANDREZ in 1999...all he wanted to do was to settle down with the 'love of his life' and to create a cosy nest of a family....

I was put in there to 'hook' him...because I wanted the same thing too.


Now, older and wiser - back at MI6 with a failed marriage and a son back in RUSSIA, with his memories back...and SONIA making advances at him....the poor guy feels like a ship-wreck WHO WANTS TO SCREAM IT ALL OUT...hence the contribution to CAROLINE's blog...

DABYDEEN is his online boss and 'mentor' so one can only hope that he understands the situation...

The MOSSAD hand, in it all, worries me...so calculating...MARK R was immensely calculating....

DABYDEEN doesn't want to send him anywhere that wouldn't be a 'rest' of him...

I would suggest that a CHANGE IS AS GOOD AS A REST...


...and that ROZ might have the best solutions.


I eventually understood ROZ in terms of what the FBI had identified her as...an extreme risk-taker.

I was the 'stay in bed' type - unless literally pulled out of it (as ROZ had to do, in NY).

What I mean to say is, that I was like this: 'no thank you - I do not want to 'hang off an iceberg with STUPID today - enough is enough- I am going to be very quiet by myself and alone - I do not mind that - so just go and enjoy yourselves WITHOUT me'...etc etc.


I can add my own analysis to that one - in relation to ROZ never wanting to be left out...MARK R had told me about that one....ROZ always wanted to be 'in the thick of it'....she couldn't bear to be left behind...as a small child "TAKE ME WITH YOU"...so the really 'tuff guys' were off on a mission...she was one of them, she could match them, in anything...


I was more of a 'just leave me alone - I am going to bed - go away'.

So now I can see that ROZ really liked to explore...that is why she was capable of MASSIVE SEARCHES in terms of remote-viewing.


She liked discovering new things and trying them out - CAROLINE had said that it was a woman/lesbian-centred thing, in the end...i.e. she tried to 'nick' your boyfriend and try him out....just like she had done CAROLINE's hairdryer....and that you should see it as a compliment....she trusted you to have 'good taste'...and she wanted to experience what you were experiencing...but at the end of the day, she wasn't interested in the 'man in the picture' - she was interested in you (and whether you had found out something that she hadn't, as yet).


I can now see how ROZ was perfect for finding things out and upon a wide spectrum...whereas for myself...I was 'at the gates' that she had found....and my character was a perfect 'spy' type...I wanted to break into those gates and get out - without anybody knowing about it....FOX creeps in and the FOX creeps out...

I had a very competitive nature, as a young child....but not with most people...not with 99% of the kids....just some of them - who posed a threat to me....and I carried that feeling on to later life....and that is why I invented 5 MINUTE CHESS so that I could BEAT TOMLINSON every time...I had to get one over him and I knew it - that was my symbolic way of doing it...