So GILL was really pissing around with my posts - and then they all appeared, after they had gone missing. Is this to make me look stupid? What do I care.

I would guess that the point here is that nobody wants me to talk about sex and sexuality and sexual pleasure that much - but that is what the ill cult are all about - sex-obsessed and I was part of some hideous mind control experiment in relation to SUN/STARS/MOON programming and in relation to tantric sex.

The ROCKEFELLERS try to control their slaves in relation to their sexual reproductivity - even going so far as to envisualise a 'pregnant man' world as their 'idyll'.

So why shouldn't I air my thoughts...all of them, upon sex and sexuality in order to get to the bottom of this?

I was like a mother to MARTIN GILL and from 3 years old...always protecting him, loving him in a maternal way...and I overstepped the mark - I should have disciplined him as a mother would...but I didn't see myself as a 'mother' - I saw myself as a 'lover' but that wasn't my real role and that wasn't how he treated me - was it? He treated me as a slave - a sex slave in a child alter.

I now have to type in RED: aphypt