http://thetinyleaf.blogspot.com/

"and so i have no choice but to ask, what am i doing with mine? and in honesty, all that i can say is that i am living. i am trying to live as an open me. i am trying to push aside the physical parts that comprise me and allow my space, the tiny bits of fizzling pops and spurts that comprise me, and the vast space that comprises me, and the bits and parts that comprise you and life and this world that we live in, to come and go through me. i am trying to accept that i am nothing. that i mean nothing. that when i feel the polarity of this, it is but an illusion, but yet, i am here. "

The common fantasy held by TEST-TUBERS that the 'real world is an illusion' - you have to let that one go, if you are to heal. You are SOMEBODY - a very real human being, character and presence in this world - pretending that 'nothing is real' and that you are 'nobody' will do your head in, immediately...send you straight back onto the heroin.

Experience the world and yourself as a REALITY and you are there...breaking through the test-tube glass and being hit by reality is hard...'newborn eyes always cry with pain in the morning sun'...but you get used to it in the end. Think of it as a 're-birth' and reclaim your world.

ROZ did so by going 'back to NATURE'...breath in clean countryside/seaside air...feel the elements...get used to your natural world again...feel the soil/grass under your feet...