Last night I had a flashback to the PRAGUE ROTHSCHILD…this was his stage in the ill cult game…plus I had seen it approved by TOMLINSON with PRINCE PHILIP, at his computer…PRINCE PHILIP wasn’t so sure…TOMLINSON was…isn’t this all insane?

Anyway, the idea was to make MARTINE so very jealous - and TOMLINSON knew how she could be goaded to do ‘wicked things’ when she was jealous…anyway, jealous enough to do a JACKIE KENNEDY on me…yes, a gun under the handbag time, that sort of thing…so you can imagine what they had planned on telling her…MARTIN(E) had a ‘gift’ for believing any old tat about me…

After I had talked it through with MARTINE to reassure her that none of it was real…she went to sleep exhausted…I then traced the network to ‘ONE-ARMED BANDIT’ aka the PRAGUE ROTHSCHILD…yes, he had been roped in too…and since a stroke or something like that…he had problems with one arm…so he used the ‘one-armed bandit’ image gif as his ‘joke’ logo…

Anyway, I then thought through relationships in general and how CAROLINE had really come out as my best friend and protector during that TOMLINSON hell…she had protected me by acting her heart out as my persecutor…because she knew that the ‘MEIN FUHRER’ crazy company would gang up on me if their ‘crazy NAZI psychologies’ were not handled carefully…and what simpler than to get in there first…upbraid and harangue me for his death…so that actually made the others want to lay off and protect me as ‘part of their gang’…it worked a treat. Thank you CAROLINE.

The more I think of THE ENGLISH PATIENT in relation to high drama/romance roles…WUTHERING HEIGHTS…anything by JANE AUSTEN…the more I get annoyed…or I did last night…

GILL told me that ROZ had tried to hide the fact that she had written BRIDGET JONES because she didn’t want anybody to know about her fantasises of TOMLINSON as a DARCY type figure. COLIN FIRTH was then to undercut her fantasy by saying that he personally didn’t find RENEE ZELLWEGGER attractive in the part, at all…he liked sophisticated Italian-looking women etc etc.

TOMLINSON had big emotional problems, he couldn’t ‘love’ anybody…and if you wanted a realistic characterisation - MCDONALD’s KOOLY BEAR fit’s the bill.

I was never really going to get on with ROZ and her high-drama romantic fantasies about certain people, in life.

When I look at BRIDGET JONES…I can now see that she wrote GILL in there as well…the eponymous rake who turns up now and then to make her laugh…you see, that is my take on life too…no matter how miserable it is - if you can end up laughing more than crying, you are doing well…we all have good and bad sides…and it wasn’t possible to do ‘heroine’ or ‘hero’…that was a childish fantasy…we all went through life saying ‘here’s my good side, now here’s my bad side…good side again…now bad side…’ and so on…

KOOLY BEAR wanted to marry PRINCESS BEATRICE because what he wanted was a ‘ROYAL status’ akin to his own…or what he thought was his own, in relation to being a cuckoo of PRINCE PHILIP.