I also had an odd dream…which I can translate…it was all about healing GILL…and in an MI6 setting…we found out that as a tiny child…he had been used as a FOOTSTOOL…freezing cold…made to keep that position for hours…with a large number of WHITE BALLOONS and a couple of LIGHT PINK ones, attached to his back…I suppose the balloons represented his fragmented personality…each balloon, another traumatised compartment…

Anyway, in my dream…I saw a literal footstool - a square one with four legs…it was rocking and moaning…with all of the balloons attached…I turned on a blow heater…to warm it up…and then a woman burst all of the balloons…smothered them, on top of the footstool…and as she did so - another woman was talking ‘science’ about the whole procedure…thermo-dynamics (the blow heater) and then quasi-mathematical equations of some description…

So upon waking, I guessed what it had all been about…deprogramming in an MI6 setting…for a very young, abused child alter…

I then thought about that film THE RED BALLOON and suddenly it made a lot more sense…it was an evil film in many ways…the puncturing of the womb is the first terrible image…that is what gets everybody into the ill cult because it is so traumatic…whether or not you are the victim…it has the same effect upon those forced to watch…the puncturing of the RED BALLOON…I couldn't stop sobbing in the cinema, as a young child…I could hardly bear to watch the film…my father kept saying to me at the end ‘it’s all right because the other balloons come to help the child’…but what does that really mean?

Your fragmented personality comes back to you…all of those balloons - to carry you off to your grave? That is the suggestion…the child is being taken up to heaven…

See previous notes upon all of those BALLOONS tied to a large WOODEN CROSS stuck in the sand at the end of THE NAZE…and that terrible ‘burst the balloons in colour-coded teams’ that we had to play in 1980. Everybody upon that course had decided to burst the GREEN BALLOONS first because they were the worst…the others were left relatively untouched…the game ended when one colour of balloon had all been burst…

The JESUIT CROSS…and all of those ‘alters’ tied to it…

A programmer ‘knew’ where a slave had been taught that their various ‘alters’ alighted, like birds…upon the CROSS…they would tap the sign of the cross and then the position of the alter that they wanted to call up…