...what else? the GAF were to move to the other side of town...for their final year at dartington...at which point in time...CF had become hooked upon heroin and because he couldn't pay laing for his last instalment...she was to tell other addicts - a bunch of bullyboys from the art department to go and rough him up...they were to hold him down and coat his tongue with indelible marker...and then tell him to crow like a cock, for his next fix....

...and somehow...it all ended up....upon a Dartmoor tor...'handfasting' as a satanic event...a very grim day...and somehow everything palls...when heroin addiction enters the picture...those who had once seen dartington college as idyllic...well, it had turned into a nightmare...laing had got to where she wanted to be...zombie queen of the zombies living in a nightmarish landscape...within their own heads...of drug addiction, Satanism, torture....blackmail...you name it...

all in all...it reminds me of a swiss film that I was to see, when young...all about a young swiss man suffering from a serious depression...he lives in an idyllic village, within the mountains...everything appear to be perfect...but it is not...he complains to his sister...that the beauty of his surroundings does nothing for him...in fact it makes him want to kill himself....

at which point, whilst watching the film...I was to think 'then you really are mad - because if I were living in Switzerland - it would cheer me up no end' etc etc....I then supposed that if you had grown up in that sort of environment...that you might become used to it and therefore it wouldn't work as a 'curative'...and then I thought about what hanni had told me about john pidgeon....suffering from depression...and suddenly I felt more sympathetic...even though he wasn't dead...or I hadn't heard about it if he was...at that point in time...