OTHER NOTES:

but i do not suppose that i need to be alarmist about this ha ha...it is all silliness really...besides the doctors are taking care of it 'their end'...

it is just that after a DRUIDS day...and knowing how dangerous/violent/downright insane they could be...that i had felt the threat was real yesterday and subsequently wondered for the umpteenth time why these people are allowed to roam the streets....particularly after the prague rothschild team had outed helen for still being a heroin addict, in charge of two children - nothing done about it at all...sending that dreadful video off to hanni - presumably to scare the pants off her....so cruel and so unnecessary....

my parents gave me that 'dark blue pullover' from weale...the one that weale and tomlinson had left over that old wooden chest - in which my mother keeps all of her old jumpers...it is an 'ark of covenant' image in a way and i am quite sure that is what they were using it for....anyway, my mother gave me it - she brought it to clacton...so at some 'level' she knows what is going on...

i do not have her opening and closing down codes...the doctors have them...so presumably they will 'take my parents through it' without any need for intervention upon my part....all i have to do is to 'keep myself safe'...and i have done that by telling my mother 'down the phone' and in no uncertain terms....at christmas for example...that i am more than happy to see her and my dad as well as ED's family but i draw the line at helen and weale...i made it quite clear at that point in time...so unless my mother is 'as deaf as a post' which she isn't....she will have 'got the message' at that point in time and i do not need to spell it out...

if my mother is still heavily 'under' and doesn't get it...well what can i do? i simply have to protect myself and explaining to her 'down the phone' that helen and weale have been trying to murder both her and dad....as well as ED's family...and that edna had been threatening to come down to clacton and shoot me with a rifle...well, yes i have some 'odd beliefs' ha ha...but there again, better to have odd beliefs than to end up dead, eh?

you see i get the feeling that if i ring my mother back...she will ask me about 'the whole family' as in helen and weale - coming down to clacton...and naturally i do not wish to have another conversation about that one....so the simple answer is: don't return the call until after the weekend. I will simply forget about it all...which is a little difficult but there you go...