i remember now...dabydeen's dept had produced the article and video....he had pointed out that columbus had actually been italian and working for the spanish court...an anomaly....

i had to remember something around the sails and that 'red cross' (knights templar/hospitallers?)....as well as the interior...the captain's cabin...that terrible dream that i had 'around that number'....my mother and then that black child with blue eyes saying 'let me die'....oh i get it now - not black at all in real life...this was all a metaphor around my sister helen....and 'the return of the dinosaurs'...she had been an extremely sickly baby and child....the conflict in my mind 'she's just a child - innocent - try to save her'...and the child's desire to die....i suppose you could say that if you had learned that your genes had gone 'extinct' to then have 'new life breathed into them' by somebody as insane as princess anne...you might not want to live either...'frankenstein's monster'....but that doesn't appear to be the case with my sister..brainwashed by the nazi eugenics agenda of those like anne, eliza and chibbie...

the dream was a 'bad comparison' between  slavedrivers and slave-driving - past and present i suppose but then dreams are never 'rational' are they? they are dealing with emotional issues and a whole plethora of data...images, sounds, colour from 'any age' or contextual background....

anyway, as mcdonald was to say upon the subject...you might see 'dinosaur genes that have returned' as being a disability of sorts....but it doesn't take away the fact that you have a human soul....nobody can take that away and that is the most important thing of all...the human soul is a reality.