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yesterday i was to watch SERIES 2 of 'dinnerladies' which was a 'nasty surprise'...yes, really...having remembered SERIES 1 and how good it was...

....i was then to remember switching off 'so many years ago now' - at the time when SERIES 2 had orginally been aired...and only after watching about 5-10 minutes of one or perhaps even two episodes, of SERIES 2...mainly because the writers had 'changed' and the production values had 'gone up' but what had been excellent about the original series...had become 'stale'....and the canned laughter after 'just about everything' even if the line-in-question, hadn't even been meant to be 'funny'...was so off-putting, as to be almost unbearable....

and yes, i can remember KATE HOLLIDAY behind series 2...and watching her 'put in' the canned laughter...with SARAH HOLLIDAY advising her upon how to do it and 'when and where'...so far, so bad - eh?

add to the above....VICTORIA WOOD is supposed to represent JADE LAING....and two of the other dinner ladies were supposed to represent ELIZA MANNINGHAM-BULLER and RIMINGTON (can you guess which two? rimington was to do so and she wasn't impressed, i can tell you)....so what were the ill cult up to? watch episodes 1-6 to 'get it' and then jump to the last episode 10....

the ill were trying to promote laing as 'friendly and likeable'...'the only dinnerlady who really cares'....what a laugh....trying to conflate jade laing with a 'caring dinnerlady'....watch episode 10 to see what jade had been lacking....ETCH-A-SKETCH was a toddy FBI/PENTAGON 'early training' metaphor.....jade is then 'given' what she had lacked....the brains, skills and talent to be a 'military specialist' let us say...MARK R and the GAF were going to 'steal the lot' off their slave bases...in order to keep jade's mafioso 'russian gangster' father, happy....see previous notes upon jade's daddy being 'head rabbi - of the sephardim, in jerusalem'...

what else did i remember about SERIES 2 'dinnerladies'?

first up, i was to remember MI6 john in a foul mood...."you said you were dumb...so you're...." he was talking to colin and myself....see the first episode on the dvd to 'get it'...i.e. the character 'derwent' and the 'job experience trainee'....and yes, i can see why john would have conflated me, with 'that one' as in the latter....see previous notes upon what the ill at the local job centre in harwich, were to attempt to do to me....after what had happened at the local job centre in ipswich, i might add - see previous notes....

why was MI6 JOHN in such a foul mood? well he had just seen the whole series and realised that 'indian anita' was a pisstake of his wife (who was of italian descent)....anita and her blow-up plastic doll, partner (to keep her from being mugged, in her car)...a blow-up doll - which somewhat resembled him...or so he had thought, at the time....and as far as i know - that was intentional....the desire to 'hurt and harm'...the ill applaud themselves 'every time' for being 'good little satanists' - once they have achieved their objective....

next up, i was to remember donna telling me to watch the series 'upon the other side of the mirror' and yes we were in a BI office/studio at the time....she was to tell me that she hadn't found any of it, even remotely funny - either....but was to recommend that i 'watch the lot' because it would be important, later on...

what else?

well 'most importantly'...MI5/MOD 'ling' was to pull a few strings, with 'those on set'...."i just hope that it's worth it" she was to say, afterwards....so what had she arranged? well, with her experience of MOD radar etc....she had put together a more 'exact' picture of the 'coloured dots upon a map'....see previous notes upon that manor in chelmsford....ling and her team had had a better idea of what was going on...than what had been left upon that computer, in that manor house.....

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what else was to come up today?

the fact that MARK R, JADE LAING and the GAF had all conspired to torture me into the ground, in relation to 'babies'....'true love'....and 'betrayal'....

i was to get so very angry, this morning....and realise that i had to 'finalise it all in my mind' or else i would get severely depressed about 'everything'....and so i did - along the following lines:

the GAF - i had fallen in love with both of them 'when i was very young'....i am no longer 'very young' and i am no longer in love with either of the GAF....

in short, i no longer want to 'be', with either of them...and i have absolutely no desire for either of GAF to father, my child...i can find better men than that....and it wouldn't be hard, would it?....let's face it....

the fact that the GAF were to force me to be 'the mother' of their two so-called 'twins'...babies farmed out to jolie and pitt....well, i am so sickened and disgusted by 'all of those adults' for doing such a criminal thing....stealing my eggs/DNA - without my consent or knowledge 'at the time'....that i wish that those children were dead - i have no emotional attachment to them, at all...i cannot take back my eggs or my DNA but i can wish that those children had never been born and that they no longer exist...that would 'wipe the slate clean' and ensure that i could then cut loose from such a terrible past and start afresh....to leave behind the GAF - as well as their sickening and repulsive behaviour....to leave it all in the past...cut loose and start again - without that terrible memory hanging over me....like some evil cloud...of times past.....2006/7 in jerusalem, to be precise....that FBI guy - brenda's friend, who was to turn up at the MI imperial hotel, well he had warned me, hadn't he? - amongst other things, he was to tell me - that the most evil, as well as the best people....were to be found in jerusalem....it had all fascinated him....and for my own part - i was to state, in a puzzled sort of way...that i hadn't met anybody who was 'really evil'....but i had done, hadn't i? in retrospect, i had met so many evil people....but mainly 'upon the other side of the mirror'...

and so today...i went for a long cycle ride....up to the telecommunications tower....the sun was huge and very bright....the temperature was mild.....and i thought about it all....and then figured...."i feel that i can now cut the GAF off....i almost hate them....i view them with disgust and repulsion....i no longer want anything to do with them...that means i am free, at last....because emotional ties are the worst...."

OTHER NOTES:

i was to meet 'roger' at the 'information kiosk' near to the telecommunications tower...to remember 'something' around what the ill had done to him, in his past....he was rather like me, in a way....'keep the sunny side up' whilst suffering from 'depression' relating to past memories.....except that he was suffering from depression, far more badly than myself....

i was then to remember 'something light'....but quite 'profound' in its way.....from my experience, working as an EFL teacher in shanghai....

CIA rachel's best friend (rachel was of mixed race, see previous notes) - well, her best friend in china - was a chinese teacher of english, at that shanghai university....a lovely woman....very pragmatic and wise....as i was to find out, upon making her acquaintance...later on...

anyway, initially - she used to invite me over, to have lunch with her and her friends, in the academic center restaurant....of jiao tong unversity.

....i hadn't dared to go in there, alone - before...because caitlin hadn't dared - pointing out that those in that restaurant were mainly esteemed 'visiting chinese academics' and other chinese academic staff 'high up the ladder' and so i had found it a bit too intimidating - and therefore chose to eat at the student canteens, instead....jiao tong shanghai university was the best scientific university that you could teach at - or attend as a student, in the whole of china....

anyway, the food was excellent and 'varied from day to day'...according to what the somewhat eccentric chef (who kept a GREY pigeon in a cage, in his garden/backyard of the academic center - shanghai only seemed to have 'white pigeons' and so 'grey ones' were something of a novelty), anyway, 'eccentric' in relation to what the chef had decided would be the 'a la carte menu'....or 'plat du jour' as it were...see previous notes....if you wanted to eat there in the evenings...the prices were astronomical - well in relation to my salary, at any rate...but the same quality....a bit like dining out in france....lunchtime and evenings....at lunch, you can get something 'cheap' and you can therefore 'test the quality'...to then make up your mind as to whether you would want to 'pay that much' in the evening....at the same restaurant.

i was to give that 'idea' to my chinese friends....see above...they were to tell me that the restaurant was losing money because apart from 'visiting academics'....it didn't make that much money....

once the prices had been lowered at lunchtime....the place used to fill up, 'like nothing else'....and word presumably spread....the 'evenings' at that restaurant, were to become as populated as the 'lunchtimes'....french culture eh? the chinese and the french have something in common, as i have always said....

anyway, the words of wisdom from rachel's best friend....after we had spent an afternoon, playing tennis together.....

she was to really 'slog it out'....as a real tennis pro....and then tell me "i like this....because it means that i can eat more...i love eating....the more exercise i do - the more i can eat!" she laughed....

...and i exclaimed....that this was the best philosophy in life, that i had heard of, so far....because it was to suit my 'situation' exactly....more exercise....more endomorphins to the brain....and when life 'sucks' in general....see previous notes upon the GAF....exercise and then eating....two basic pleasures.....are basic deterrents, in relation to getting too depressed...and wanting to commit suicide.....

if you love life enough - to do enough exercise...walking/cycling up the prom....and that means you can 'eat more' and almost everybody wants to do that, don't they? well why not - eh? a very basic philosophy.....but one that 'works'....exercise more....eat more....i'm happy with that one....but then the 'simple things in life' have always pleased me.

...and yes, BI - you are quite correct....today was all about 'calling in favours'...

...because I was to realise that SIS were still attempting to hold me prisoner...to tie me to their sickness and their evil...

MARK R jade laing and the GAF had concocted that evil plot...and as far as I know the GAF are still emotionally attached...how sad....let us hope that the consequences of their actions do not drive them to suicide, eh?

it is important to show that one wants nothing to do with SIS KIT experiments and upon an international level...that one finds the ill and what they have done, abhorrent....

mr putin's network was to reply that none of it had happened with my permission and that action would now be taken...go figure....

that day playing tennis on a Jiao tong university court...later on, I was to meet mr putin...and we talked about many things...about life in general...and yes I can now see what this was all about...and what today was about, for example....cutting free from the ill cult and their hideous network...

I can remember mr putin talking about the HOLLIDAY sisters...they might have been 'good people' once upon a time but now they were evil robots....his own words 'evil robots'....one has to be aware that one is fighting a 'dr Mengele cult' and to give it no quarter....no chance at all.