...friends of course, are few and far between...when you are on the wrong side of the ill(uminati) cult....but I managed to find a few...albeit 'distant' let us say...."all working towards the same goal....part of the same cause" replies MI5 ONLINE.....good - oh and having returned those books and dvd, that I was to borrow from Clacton library yesterday....well, the film was to remind me of 'tearing another strip' off of CF....who, after I had 'said my piece'....was to admit that the whole thing had been gill's idea - the plot and characterisation - along with certain scenes within the movie...and the main idea, had been to make me feel sorry for both of them...the GAF feeling suicidal...for what they had done....and my reaction? disbelief and rage.....

...you see - at the time it was to ignite my fury....along the lines of "you are feeling a true human emotion for once in your life? you feel depressed because of what you have done....but on the other hand you will not admit to any of it....you identify with the bloke who is suicidal but doesn't know why...you both know why....you joined the quick-fix apple cult of baby-eaters...you used and abused me for decades...and in every possible way....your protection, your remoteviewer, your 'nanny'...."....."your comfort rag - which you then threw away into a damp bedsit when it wasn't needed anymore and continued to steal....not just from her" replies MI5 ONLINE....yes, all of that and I was to add "bloodsuckers" to the list...oh and if the GAF thought that I would feel 'sorry' for them, during their 'suicidal depression' moments because of what they had done to me, and those like myself...well, they were so very wrong....so very wrong - go figure....see previous notes. as far as I was concerned - if they felt suicidal...that was a 'healthy response' in relation to feeling something 'human' for a change - and in relation to the consequences of all of the terrible things that they had done....go figure.

....oh and "you want to jump off of a building because you do not want to do any introspection - in relation to what you have done - and you expect me to feel sorry for you???!?!"

"go jump" replies MI6 ONLINE...exactly my feelings, at the time.

....i do not know who coined the phrase...'you are either part of the problem or you are part of the solution'...but at last count, so many years ago now....gill was still 'part of the problem' and CF was attempting to turn over a 'new leaf'...go figure.

....and how did i find myself harnessed between two demonic 'Charlie chaplins' in a four-legged race? i ask myself.....and the answer, unfortunately, rests....in what moshe dayan was up to...in those barracks, just above the Russian orthodox compound in ein kerem....he had 'rescued' all three of us....and arranged 'radio connections'...to enable me to mine gill's chip....to find out what that chief Sephardic Russian criminal was all about...and his 'robot daughter' etc etc....CF was two years younger than gill and i...but also put into the 'same bracket' by Richard harris (see previous notes upon the mount of olives)....gill and i, were supposed to protect his son...."let him shine" replies BI ONLINE...although having realised that little colin wasn't his real son - in a fit of rage....harris was to do so many terrible things, to that little boy...and that is why his mother was to 'take off'...moonlight to Ireland...unable to keep the child, any longer...she found friends....adoptive parents....go figure.