OTHER NOTES:

...and i shall entitle this next bit:

"the battle of the nail clippers"

...which was something that mark r had laughed to mcdonald...in relation to me meeting up with sharon in jerusalem...."it'll be the battle of the nail clippers then?"

see previous notes upon our argument in relation to the spiritual image of 'adam kadmon'...sharon was to tell me that my soul group was of a lesser importance than most, to the jewish 'soul collective'...he then likened my soul to a fingernail which could be cut off....

...to which i retorted that i was from the 'kohanim' group and that he was a 'levi'...and therefore if anybody was going to be doing the 'cutting off' then it would be me and not him...

we were laughing as we argued...because at the end of the day...the structuring absence was..."mark r and mcdonald's frequency program - one big joke" replies MI5 ONLINE.

anyway, let us go back in time now...to when col the sol was a very little boy...i had just cut his fingernails...he then began to sob loudly...even though he had let me do it, in the first place...and without resistance....but afterwards, he was to get very upset...and so i took him on my knee...and he clung to me, weeping...and so i asked "what is it little boy?...what is it?" - and in a somewhat garbled fashion...he was to tell me about what toddy had programmed him with...in relation to 'nail clippers'...see above.

i am not sure that i really understood what 'little colin' was telling me but i got the gist of it...he had lost something that was very important to him...some type of energy and through the tops of his fingers...and so i then invented a game - whereby he could 'put back' whateveritwas....by touching the tops of his fingers....one by one - and this seemed to be 'okay'...everything was then all right.

roll on the years to H house, totnes...i can remember cutting col the sol's nails again...jade laing was to find out...to then tell him that 'next time' - she would give him a manicure....and guess what? after cutting the first fingernail...she began to do what toddy had done....see above...the whole 'cutting off your soul' business...to which he then replied "f*** you f***ing bitch" and exited the house...to go and find me...

gill was to have a look at his private CCTV in H house, years later on...and tell me that i had better talk to col the sol about it...

anyway, toddy had programmed me in as an unwitting 'cutter off of souls'....as a nailclipper....which is presumably why 'that one' was to come up this morning...

OTHER NOTES:

...during that childhood nail trimming incident...i hadn't learned by that point in time -not to call the very young colin 'little'...i was to learn later on - to then mark the door threshold with his height and tell him to measure himself against it 'in a year' and to the day...because he liked dates, for some reason...michael richardson's gang found out...and suddenly it became one big competition...i can also remember seeing the future and telling 'little colin' that one day he would be taller than some of the rest of them in that gang and so not to worry...he wanted to know who but i wouldn't tell him...knowing that he wanted to be taller than 'michael richardson' and i couldn't quite judge the differential....anyway, telling him that he would tower above me (i was taller than michael at that point in time) was to make him very happy indeed..."and one day you will be so tall, just like your dad - that when you look down...you won't even be able to see me...i'll be that small"...