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yesterday i was to remember toddy and a session with his 'icecream'...little colin and gill were also present...in short, gill and i knew how to turn the dial upon the cosmic transistor...and we had reached the stage where we used to visit the 'planets' for a laugh...MARS was a favourite...anyway, once 'tripping'...little colin knew more...he was to flash me...how do i describe it? ben stenson's circuit board into which you could stick probes/plugs...each hole labelled with a planet....in short, little colin had connected up the two, in his head...'visiting the planets' by using what i shall call an FBI drug....and doing it manually with MOD radio equipment....

next up...jeremy norman's book has an 'anxiety' running through it...from start to finish...and it is all about the murder of lady delamere's lover....so what was that all about then? and how was richard tomlinson implicated? seeing as he was the one who had shown me the book first...at warwick university - 1996...long before it was published....

in short, it is all about what i shall call the 'sugarman principle'....a consignment of military remoteviewing drugs had gone 'missing' and turned up in the back of a vehicle outside of lady delamere's house...tomlinson, whilst working for MI6 at the time...had been sent in as a 'hitman' to deal with it...as it turns out - he got there too late...the lover had already been shot...so who had done it?

norman knew...because he had found those boxes of drugs, first - and yes, he had been staying at lady delamere's house at the time...and he had obviously thought that the drugs looked like a 'safe substance' to use...because he had taken a small amount of it...back to his room and 'tried it out'...to then be surprised by the result...to put it briefly - he began to realise that he could 'see through walls'...and 'go wide' - as in look at the entire environment...the house and its surrounds....

according to the narrative in his book...it was lady delamere who had shot her lover....

MI5 toby was to look into the whole thing - seeing as his brother tomlinson had been implicated.....he was to find out that lady delamere had been under mind control orders, from her husband to shoot the lover - who had been attempting to run off with those drugs - in that vehicle....

...and the upshot of all of the above? mcdonald was to get interested...in relation to where those drugs had come from...in order to end up outside of that house...and where they might have ended up...the implication being? that they might have been US military drugs (not MI6 drugs) although i have no further information upon that one.....and that is why i have called this whole episode 'the sugarman principle' i.e. when and where the general public gets their hands on remoteviewing drugs...and in south africa - where else?

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...what else? i can remember toddy labelling little colin 'the son/sun'...i was the moon, reflecting what he knew (heads together, time)...and little martin was the earth...picking it all up.

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that 'feeding frenzy' metaphor in relation to sardines/pilchards 'in the blue ocean'?...i am reminded of those NASA articles about how MARS used to have oceans....but then became a desert...something around the ill pushing the idea of 'global warming'?

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...and then i realised that this might be about the whole nazi program...and their conception of 'evolution'......perhaps 'mars' was modelled upon an early version of planet earth...

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...and if we were talking about planetary evolution...well, we could also talk about 'human evolution'...'the theory of evolution' in relation to human beings having been descended from 'something which crawled out of the oceans'...out of the primal soup....

...human evolution - according to the ill cult?

...see previous notes upon the really 'mental robots'....autistics like jade laing, petrol nell and ingabot (the satanic princesses)...deciding that the next step to 'higher consciousness' within human evolution - was in fact 'autism'...

ingabot had been autistic from birth...i can remember BI's psychiatric and psychology teams diagnosing 'that one' in relation to the fact, that her peer group at all saints primary, could all communicate easily at a certain age....whilst she remained unable to do so...and unwilling to do so...ingabot had been acting upon an 'i me mine' principle, at the same age....and rather aggressive if not violent towards other children and her peer group in general...i can remember that birthday party with the 'ladybird cake' (see previous notes and kodak photo that hanni was to give me)....

anyway, the other children invited....well, none of them liked ingabot because she was so anti-social...the adults were all watching that birthday party scene, from further down the kitchen - those like hanni, my mother, harris and ray fishwick...

....and i wasn't allowed to sit down with the other children..."you're a little woman now - one of the adults" i was told...and i can remember politely arguing back that i was only 6 years old and therefore a 'grown-up child' not actually an adult...anyway, i was told to make sure that the 'babies' at that party were 'happy'...and so i went around filling crisp dishes and asking them if they wanted more cake etc...michael richardson was also at that table "i'm only here for the food - i'm not a baby" he was to state loudly...he was sitting opposite to little colin...to then nick little' colin's sausage off his plate...i was to take it back off michael's plate and put it onto little colin's..."just because he's a slow eater doesn't mean he doesn't want it" - i then gave little colin a peck on the cheek because he was looking rather insecure in that large gathering (he was about 4 years old, i suppose and hadn't met them all before)...

anyway, once harris and his wife had arrived...they were to ask little colin if he wanted a blonde girlfriend (ingabot)...he replied emphatically "NO" and then added that he liked me...the adults laughed....and asked him why....michael replied "because she gave him a kiss"...anyway, little colin was fascinated by michael...he was to watch him closely for the whole birthday party session...and later on, at school...they were to become best friends...and form a gang around themselves...see previous notes...anyway, who else was at that party? mimi's daughter 'sarah lucy' who was to work for ingabot, in later life....and also one of the fishwick daughters....the rest of that long table, were all boys...and the party was not a 'success' because ingabot wasn't 'social'...she was autistic...in that she was unable to communicate and violent towards the other children of her own age and those a bit older (like michael richardson) - hitting out at those next to her and across the table - but i suppose that nobody had heard of 'autism' in those days...see previous notes upon what inga was to do to her ingabot next....in order to get her 'up and running' to pass as 'normal'...and it took years, didn't it?

having remembered what ingabot was like at that age...i was then to remember roz in a child alter...she was 'rather like that'...in that she couldn't communicate....she used to act upon an 'i me mine' principle...and was aggressive, if not violent, when interfered with - in relation to what she was doing....and i 'knew' how to handle her, whilst in a child alter...for example those tinned peaches in that templar castle kitchen...i was to let her have the whole bowl - knowing not to interfere with her or else she would get violent (see previous notes upon rimington at the CIA LAB and "fetch the warm milk!").....

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...and having remembered all of the above...i was to remember an MOD model....a golden ball on top of a metal coil - shaped as a cylindrical pyramid....

...was MARS the 'final solution'? i wondered....the desert planet.....or was the golden ball supposed to be 'the sun'? it must have been the sun, i suppose....

the above model also reminded me of a 'gramaphone record'....the different tracks upon the spiral....

i then thought about those two pinball wizards - mcdonald and SC...who according to the latest theory from NASA......those two planets (was it jupiter and saturn?) had managed to get off of their 'track' as in their orbit towards the perimeter of that gramaphone record....to then hurtle towards the sun...and then back out again...to where their original orbits had been....

i then realised what the above, was a metaphor for...they had used remoteviewing drugs...in order to 'see the future'...i.e. what was at the end of that gramaphone record...closest to the sun....they had managed to change their orbital frequencies....to an orbital frequency, far closer to the sun...and then reversed the process....and gone back to their original positions....go figure what 'that one' is all about....

gramaphone records and the gramaphone....along with 'little dog' listening in....'col the sol' listening in to what the MOD were up to....telling toddy, martin and i - about that planetary circuitry board....

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...so not 'you are my sun, my moon, my stars' then?

...and more of 'you are my sun, my moon, my earth'....

MYTHREE eh?