this morning i realised a few things...that i hadn't remembered and/or made clear in my notes....

firstly the HADDOCK MORNAY...we had been taken into a french restaurant to see jeremy do his 'ill cult magician impression' around the HADDOCK MORNAY...only the soulless yuppies were allowed to eat it and 'understand what it meant' - although slaves taken into the restaurant to watch them eating it - were not allowed to do so, themselves....we simply had to stand and watch, at the back....

well, so far, so bad....

which is why i have been buying it from M&S recently....you can also get haddock in cheese sauce but according to my mother that isn't 'the real thing at all'...the MORNAY SAUCE is really quite 'special'....

see previous notes upon helen being chief-editor of the new rowling novel and the 'prediction' of obama's assassination, around about the time, of its release....MOURN 'A' source code.

OTHER NOTES:

next up was the VINALTA label....was this referencing 'altervista' in an alternative universe....i have no idea...all i know is that it was directly referencing rabbis....'blue in the face'....blue/grey in the face....'blue trees'....and having zipped out to get a bottle of it, this morning from M&S...the cork has BLACK GRAPES upon it....

i then remembered bobby/weale's mob coaxing humphrey to join them and to give them an idea for this 'stage in the ill cult game'...well, he was to give them this....a 'funny story' that he had told me about his KING EDWARD'S school- during the first or second-year...well i had found it funny at the time...but GILL hadn't done at all - and now, i can finally see why....

it was all about a boy in humphrey's year called MENDOZA - that was his surname but all little boys called each other by their surnames 'in my day and generation' and as a consequence, i do not know his first name...and neither did humphrey when i questioned him...but then as he pointed out....he hardly knew the first names of any of his 'nasty little friends' at the time of being questioned about it....they all called each other by their surnames 'that was the system'...a bit ARMY then?

VINALTA is from Mendoza, Argentina....

....the young GILL was to say that mendoza was a spanish family....and one that needed a massive amount of respect in his eyes....

anyway, mendoza had a cabbage phobia....the little boy in the 1/2nd year of KING EDWARDS'S FOR BOYS in Edgbaston, Birmingham, UK...that is....

so much so that whilst in the dinnerline at the school canteen...he used to throw a fit if the dinner lady in question 'forgot' and put cabbage upon his plate along the lines of:

"no no, not CABBAGE....take it away from me....KEEP IT AWAY!" whereupon he would back away in terror and begin to cry....

Now that is not a normal reaction to boiled, chopped cabbage, is it?...and according to humphrey the whole dinner queue behind mendoza, would snigger...

it got worse...to the point if mendoza could see cabbage in one of those stainless steel containers...he was unable to approach the kitchens, in order to choose a dinner...until it had been covered up/taken away...

i related the above to gill as a 'funny story' and he was furious with me...told me that the family name mendoza meant that he was obviously one of the spanish sephardim....and how dare any of them laugh at MENDOZA?

what was gill really saying? well - picture this - gill at langley juniors....bawling after he had been given SHEPHERD'S PIE to eat....he couldn't touch it....to have it 'near to him' was painful in extremis.....and why? because it reminded him of the horrific experience of:

being in a car in the middle of nowhere (by a forest and down a mud track), with 'that rimington' and toddy....'that rimington' then fed him her lunch - which she hadn't eaten, that day - fished a plastic container out of her bag - it contained shepherd's pie...she then produced a fork and 'forked' it into his open mouth - he was a very young child at the time....and about to pass out through starvation...the ill often starved kids...particularly during torture/trauma sessions...

'that rimington' and toddy - who were then to abort a pregnant woman, tied up - upon the backseat and then murder her 'in the back'...although she put up a massive struggle...there was a lot of screaming and blood everywhere....little gill in the front passenger seat.....traumatised out of his mind - and a half-eaten shepherd's pie on the dashboard....

so you can guess what might have happened to MENDOZA around CABBAGE - can't you?

all i can say 'in summary' is that if you dig up the 'horror childhood memory' and view it within the mind of an adult....you can distance yourself, put it into perspective and deal with it.

OTHER NOTES:


what do i relate cabbage to?

'cabbage brains' i suppose...and the fact that ill cult programmers in 1980 - used to call decapitating human beings - 'beheading cabbages'....see previous notes upon BURMA and 'old colonials' - black or white....because there is a hidden history of black colonial slave-drivers which obama had wanted to suppress (yes the percentage was tiny opposed to white ones but one shouldn't erase it upon those grounds)....

and black uber-mafia bosses, i might add....one had run the USA during the time of MALCOLM X.....and covertly as obama knew....he was to give me 'that clue' in prague whilst dressed as an African king at HRADCANSKA (see previous notes upon that 'chance meeting' - with LAZROE acting as a 'ill cult madame' of sorts)....obama was to tell me that he ran a company in PRAGUE but that he pulled the strings from behind - because the CZECHS were too racist to accept a 'black boss'....and the USA uber-mafia boss above?

Well he had 'done it a bit like the japanese' - hacked through networks/technology/transmissions/masonic signalling systems to get where he wanted to be....'running it all from behind'....

obama in the CR? well according to him...his company was an African one....a communist state which had connections with the old Czechoslovakia....he had gone to university in moscow and other places...his education had been extensive and 'all over the world'...he had also studied at OXBRIDGE...a bit like IDI AMIN then?

Anyway, as far as i know - that small potted history was 'as close to the truth' as obama 'knew' at that point in time....and as much as he would divulge to anybody.....even his wife LAZROE...sitting in front of him...she loved him, no doubt about that - 'the look in her eyes'...whilst he looked like a 'hunted animal' seated across the table...a slave....so, an 'ill mistress and her favourite pet' then....you see these people could really 'fall in love with you' but at the same time - you were simply their 'favourite pet animal'....you see how it goes?

i was prince william's 'favourite pet rabbit' for some years...until BRNO - see previous notes.

and when the ill decide that it is time to call in the MI6 'HELIVETS' to 'put you down' with a 'painless injection' - because you are too old - and disobedient....'don't do tricks like you used to do anymore'...that is the time to 'wise up' to the whole ill cult MKULTRA system and FAST.

and i can remember now...this includes 'naomi campbell' who doesn't look a day older than when....well when she first became a SUPERMODEL.....

but you see.....MARYLIN MONROE 'looked her most beautiful' in screen shots released - of the 'movie never made' and just before her death....so 'you never know'....if the ill have decided that they 'want to move on and without their favourite pet' - because when that time comes -  you've had it....whoever you are...in the star-studded system, as run by the ill.