mysticism and shopping....

carpe diem

'seize the day'

i can remember helen rodway telling me that if you had the money to buy an item of clothing that you really, really wanted...to do so if it was within your budget...because the odds are that even if you go back the next day...sod's law decrees that you will not find 'it' again...

reminds me of tibetan buddhism and also the chinese concept of 'the way'...sometimes, it opens...and you have to be ready for it...because you may never find it again...

having had a very small budget for clothes and for all of my life....i was to realise that helen's advice actually made sense....get what you really want if you have the money, when you see it....otherwise you end up saying 'i have to have a new pair of trousers for work - this old pair has had its day and looks so shoddy' to then go and buy a new pair which 'does' as in 'it'll do' - but a pair that you can't really stand...it is simply because the new pair 'fits the bill'...your immediate requirements...and you cannot find the 'pair that you once saw' about a month/year/2 years ago - the ones that were 'perfect'....this can apply to almost any item 'on the market' at all...in relation to consumable goods.

did SEX AND THE CITY 'do a number' upon the above? if not - they should have done....

and you wonder why this is 'george clooney and the super models' day, today?

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what was this morning, actually all about?

a lot of things -beginning with the following:

KATY PERRY and VANESSA FELTZ

KATY's family had decided that 'enough was enough' in relation to the ill cult - and they had decided to put a stop to what KAMINSKY had planned to happen in CROMER....

let me explain....the woman who had been beheaded in that supermarket in tenerife...well it was a MARK R 'job'....and the woman appears to have been related to MARK KAMINSKY...

tanya's dept was to find out that he had employed a jewish guy to do it....the one 'smoking blow' upon that THE SUN interview - upon YOUTUBE?

what had mark r done?

well i cannot say for definite because whilst green tower's collective back was turned - i was doing other things and wasn't looking at the time 'that much'...i had more important things to do...but i would guess that he had 'changed the frequency fields' and that the guy 'had up' for the murder - wasn't really him at all....you see how it goes?

i was to watch tanya's THE SUN video of 'the guy who had dunnit'....and listen to the east ender voice on the balcony....is TENNERIFE a bit like the costa del sol then for east end mafia bosses and 'great train robbery' members 'on the run'...and those like TOMLINSON for example?

'ER YOU, GET STUFFED' sort of thing to guy down below....he was telling him that he was 'under the scrutiny' of an undercover camera, i suppose....warning him for his own good? also telling him not to implicate him for 'anything'...and that raises more questions than it gives answers, doesn't it - tanya?

i cannot comment anymore upon that video or 'what really happened' in TENNERIFE...all i can say is that MARK KAMINSKY took it all to heart...his 'auntie' or something like that....

secondly, i can state 'for definite' that MARK KAMINSKY was 'out for revenge'....and who did he want to behead 'in revenge'....my own mother.

a little strange, don't you think?

considering KAMINSKY was 'in cahoots' with MARK R -who had arranged the beheading of his relative....

all i can say to that one is this - MARK R would have done it 'to anybody' in his struggle to get to the top of the ROYAL ill cult tree....

and fooling kaminsky - would have been 'par for the course'...just as it had been for gill...'the love of his life'...or would that have been 'eti' - the former 'love of his life' (until he had got him under control and 'lovin' it' - a conquest - that had subsequently bored MARK R)....you see how it goes?

anyway, let us get back to 'my own mother'....

mark kaminsky had figured that revenge upon my family 'was the way to go'....i cannot fathom it out yet but that is what he had thought....perhaps he figured that i was 'behind it all'....well, i certainly wasn't behind the beheading of his relative, whatever else i might have been behind...that had been a MARK R 'feat' accomplished by tweaking frequency fields and getting the 'wrong guy' jailed for it....

i can remember tanya showing me the video of the 'guy under the balcony smoking weed'....and saying 'that's him'....but at the time i was bemused...i had no idea what she was talking about...all i knew was that the whole thing had been a MARK R/GREEN TOWER 'project'.....at a time when you could 'pass almost anybody off as somebody else' by tweaking frequency fields....

all i can say is that tanya was implying that 'hispanic looking guy' who had been spotted by an eye witness....well, she was implying that he was an israeli for some reason and 'on a job'....so who had been his 'boss' - she wanted to know....well that's easy - MARK R had been in charge...he had been in charge of the whole operation - under the careful surveillance of the BRITISH ROYAL PRINCES - they were 'his boss'...and they watched all of the subsequent footage 'with glee'....something is coming back around that now...the two young princes being a bit 'queasy' about it all....should they watch it or not? they both wanted to do so...they had 'ordered it'....but could they bring themselves to watch such a real-life horrorstory....as far as i know - they did manage to do so....the ill love to titillate themselves in this way...and then they 'go and do something worse'...once the 'thrill' is gone....read J G BALLARD to get an idea of this 'class of people'...the elite.

MARK R would have probably hired 'somebody that the emanuel brothers knew'....that is all i can say....i say 'probably' because i do not know....but the odds are - aren't they?

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so kaminsky had decided to 'blame me'....well i have had a lifetime of 'blame' loaded upon myself....because i have always consciously and openly fought the ill cult...fought MKULTRA....

i wasn't fooled by the 'gold treasure hunt' and i can remember trying to dissuade GREEN TOWER from going ahead....but they were all like 'little excited children'...they probably were, come to think of it now....all in varying child/teenage alters....i can remember 'even gill' saying to me....'once we get the money - we can do what we want' i.e. continue to fight the ill but with money under our belt...a stronger footing, as he was to put it....

i knew it was 'all a trap'...this GOLD FEVER business....but they all ran for that 'golden carrot' like nothing else...and once their collective back was turned...i was freed up to do 'other things'....which is why when i got an emergency message from tanya and co....i was a little bit 'how does one say?' - 'what's going on? basically'....and needed time to catch up....'the tennerife incident' which happened a long time ago now...unless i was looking through WINNIE's eyes, let us say...

OTHER NOTES:

i can see what gill was trying to do now...and very bravely...'lead them off' - all of the illl at GREEN TOWER and within the CIA LAB....and they all left - didn't they?

they all ran like lemmings 'for the gold' - to leave me alone, in order to be able to do 'whatever'....

interlaken: i can remember BAGLEY shouting at GILL...who was 'dying on the floor' from that syringed drug - shouting at gill - to give him the code for that financial worksheet database....i can remember sending gill a code...a link to a 'false front database'....and that is why BAGLEY and co - then saved gill's life - with the antidote....they had been conned, basically but they didn't know it at the time....

OTHER NOTES:

well the above is all a bit of 'a muddle' isn't it?

but it is all interlinked and related....

kaminsky's mob on the march....

and what we are addressing today is CROMER and what he had hoped to do there...

you see COOGAN had wanted to 'out' a whole load of stuff, about the ill - in his new film....

the ill knew that if they terrorised COOGAN 'one more time' - with one of their 'atrocities'....that he would 'back down and give up'....the 'last straw upon the camel's back' and all that....

that is why kaminsky had decided to do a 'supermarket beheading' in CROMER....

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and where do KATY PERRY and VANESSA FELTZ come into this all?

well, first up 'they were friends'....they knew each other well....yes a certain 'age difference' but even so....

secondly, and i know that this is a bit 'wide' but my father had once come back from london to tell my mother and me....that he had met VANESSA FELTZ in the southbank arts complex.....she had been quite flustered about the tickets that she had been given....and had walked up to him 'out of the blue' and asked him how to sort the matter out....he had listened closely and then given her 'the right advice'....

what year was this? well during the time that my parents had first moved into MANNINGTREE...so we are going back a few years but not that many....during the time that they had lived at NUMBER 8 KILN LANE....

what had been happening to VANESSA FELTZ? I would guess that she had been 'being put through a 13TH ONE ILL CULT GAME' herself....because i 'know' that what had happened was a MARK R 'scam'....

she had booked performance tickets for a 'party of her friends' - many of whom would be arriving in london soon, for a holiday....and then she had found out that the tickets were for seats all over the auditorium.....in small 'clumps'.....secondly she had found the box office assistant extremely unhelpful.... 'in fairyland basically'....giving her a set of 'crazy options' in order to 'make it better'....none of which amounted to 'her whole party sitting together'....and was told that she had to 'choose'....she had looked at the auditorium diagram...been given so many 'crazy options'....freaked out...run for it....bumped into my father....who then listened to the whole thing....and gave her the right advice....

which as far as i know....but i cannot remember was simply 'choose another box assistant' and cancel ALL OF THE TICKETS and then BLOCK BOOK.....

it must have worked....because vanessa then remembered my father as a 'good man'....

and told KATY PERRY about the whole incident...

OTHER NOTES:

more is to follow....

during rehearsals for this ill cult game.....KATY and VANESSA were to 'realise MARK R's plot' as well as KAMINSKY's plot in cromer....

they were then to 'dress up as police officers' and to apprehend the 'mr watson' in CROMER...the guy that kaminsky had paid to be the ill cult 'snuff movie' film-maker.....

they handcuffed him....called the 'real police' and then handed him over...saying CITIZEN'S ARREST and then made a run for it to their car....

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and there is more.....

PERRY's family were very influential in 'show business'....and they were also 'very influential' in other circles....

they managed to have the 'only store in cromer' closed down....so that nobody would be able to use it as a 'beheading location' in the future.....

a fact that my mother was to tell me 'not so long ago'....even that one small supermarket in cromer had been closed down....

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and more.....

the PERRY family had bodyguards/minders....and one of their bodyguards....looked just like GEORGE CLOONEY.....

vanessa liked the look of him...began to date him...and as far as i know....during those 'frequency field' days....married him.

can you guess what had happened?

i can.....

OTHER NOTES:

the real george clooney had been recalled to MI6....he had worked with a BI 'supermodel team' and then been memory-dumped and thrown onto the street.....whilst 'joke guy' with a lot of plastic surgery - had been 'put in' - in hollywood.

ELLEN had been involved because she had been one of the original clooney's friends....he was 'the boy next door' to her....and she loved him....and not just 'the boy next door on the studio set'....she knew him quite well....

so she was rather upset to put it mildly to find out that 'after the switch'....she wasn't allowed to meet george clooney again...and neither were all of his closest friends....those much closer than her, in a way....

so the 'real george clooney' had ended up memory-dumped and put to work as a bodyguard of the PERRY family.....

I have had certain images back now....of 'his sisters' rescuing him (carla and talia - who used to go for holidays in that 'clementine' castle - meeting little georges again and calling him their little brother).....and how did they manage to do it? 'blue eyes.....i'm home'....you see - after a horrific stage event - at the end of the paris school.....i was to cry my eyes out....inconsolable.....bruni and her small clique walked by saying words to the effect of 'don't you see - that is what they want us to do and we will not do it - she doesn't understand'.....yet little georges did....he ran up and held me for a while....even though i was beyond consolation at the time and ignored him....

little george 'had a heart'....and i suppose that the PARIS SCHOOL program was all about 'not having a heart' and being able to 'do things' whilst at a diplomatic/ambassador level...that were 'without heart'....

and that was his greatest strength...as no doubt, the 'three sisters' had known.....my swiss grandmother had loved 'little georges'...he was 'something special'....

and now?

what is the outcome?

you had a fake george clooney in the USA and a real one in the UK - working as a bodyguard....to then get married to vanessa feltz as far as i know.....

and then bruni and georges' ex-wife talia - took control of the situation....

and now what?

well, as you can see....katy perry and ellen at that awards 'do'....

but what else?

is there 'closure' upon all of this?

all i can say...and it is facile and stupid....is that it all looks a bit like fucking GARFIELD 2 to me....but 'in reverse'....

georges clooney's cat made the transatlantic trip and back....and so i am assuming that he did, too....with his black and white cat.