...."and the saddest part - she had no idea"....hmmm...i can now remember what had happened at the old knoll, dazzlenation....inga had been there....with a roll of black liquorice....however, she was more interested in hanni gloor's hair.....very thick wavy, black hair - tinged with grey.....she was musing upon a 'radioactive conductor rods' number...whilst inspecting a strand of it.....they could use its atomic number etc etc.....lol....something along those lines....and it was all so horribly sad....that hanni had had no idea....although as grandpa clayton had known etc etc.....anyway - hanni knew more than most, in the end, as she was to laugh - at artos, interlaken - despite being horribly mistaken about ingabot - who had not been her grandchild......go figure:

THE MEANING OF LIFE by DON HERTZFELDT - YouTube

and to be honest, dazzlenation....even though i was not part of obama's A team and am definitely NOT 'tripping through the daisies'....i've been feeling a bit like the following and for some time, now....with regard to....how shall i put it....who is alive and who isn't...and in relation to so many cover-ups....how many of my generation are still left alive, for example?...not many, i would guess....and well, i was to see whalley, not that long ago....not that she was in a fit mental state to etc etc.....and what about the rest of them, then?...not to mention what remains of my so-called 'family'....hmmm....i then remember emet's words, at the MI imperial hotel, jerusalem....whilst talking about his own so-called....."you see, it wasn't real - it was an illusion and so i didn't...."....etc etc.....and watch out because the same thing will happen to you...something that he had agreed to warn me about, whilst at the US consulate, jerusalem - 2007...let me see...oh, they've closed it down now...anyway, brenda had needed a reminder....left something behind?....maybe in the souk - brenda....remember those computer studies graduates who had run that excellent internet cafe?......go figure: