OTHER NOTES:

last night i watched ZOOLANDER II and THE LADY IN THE VAN...to remember quite a bit...see below...

i was also...to wake up this morning...after a 'toss-and-turn' night of 'hot and cold'....temperatures for july run 'hot and cold' at night.....within the clacton region...go figure.

....and 'cold sweats'....are the ill trying to induce 'menopause' (by triggers/memory recall from 2003 - see previous notes) or am i like so many clacton women who menstruate into their 60s? see previous notes....oh and 'on the web' the ill have changed the 'time' of 'menopause' from 40+ to 50+ go figure.....

(and this has happened every night and for the whole week, i might add)...to then get furious with the ill...yet again - so many times....oh and when i finally OBE because of the stress of it all - because the stress will eventually bring on a 'serious physical illness' - can you guess what might happen in relation to being 'best at maths'...regarding the pentagon programs/systems, running at present....because - satanic mental robots never think that far, do they?....and so i'll fill in the details... i'll do as much damage - to as many of you, as i possibly can - every single ill cult animal that has stolen off of me - and with that knowledge of 'network control' from the CIA LAB in terms of US presidential intelligence (courtesy of mcdonald, obama and SC) - i can, simple as that...

...so many have already been taken out...see previous notes upon mark r and his substitution packages...and so even if we are now down the line to the...let me scan for details...the fourth or fifth ill cult substitution-down-the-line...every substitution will all be taken out...until there is nobody left to substitute...go figure.

anyway, this sunday morning was not a 'good one' in terms of me thinking...'i understand donna now ' in relation to how 'depressing' the whole thing can be - when you haven't got a laughing gas canister handy....etc etc...the effect of so much stress and for so long....the ill had targetted me from early childhood...but the real 'stress' was to begin in 2005...when they began this 13th one ill cult game....11 years ago now...that is how long...the death threats mount...and sometimes upon a daily rather than weekly basis...go figure.

oh and in relation to that whole 'hot/cold/red/blue' horror - in relation to the menopause - i was to think..along the lines of "i have no idea whether or not this is like those 'raised scars' which will go down again and are not 'real' but simply remembered 'torture" see previous notes upon the ill trying to auto-suggest through torture...that i was going through the menopause in 2003....but on the other hand...perhaps it is a mixture of the two - which makes it doubly worse...and only goes to show what sick and puerile 'animals' i have not only had to deal with but also to 'work' with, too...go figure.

when roz told me that the CIA LAB men...along with the rest of the men at green tower...were nothing but...."a kindergarten"...a mkultra 'class' of buggered and abused 'little boy alters'....little boys...who thought that they were 'little girls' somewhere in their heads...those who had all been taught to do evil in order to 'earn money'...well, she'd hit the nail upon the head, there, hadn't she?...go figure.

...and how i had managed to get through it all...without being murdered by them, so many years ago now...i am now beginning to wonder...go figure.

perhaps it is because i was always the 'nanny'..the caring....'loving and forgiving' one...and i had been for most of my life...no doubt about that...but now that i have reneged upon that 'role' in order to expose the lot....my life is in danger and perhaps more than ever before? something like that....?

you see everybody has their boundaries, their limits...you can only push a person so far...and then they just 'talk about the whole lot'...and i had been pushed that far....let me tell you...so many times, during my life...and sometimes - you've just got to let it all out - but only when you have a 'safe space' in which to do so...ha ha ha....go figure.

OTHER NOTES:

...and so what did i remember last night? well, ZOOLANDER II wasn't the trigger to remember the following...in point of fact, i had remembered the following before watching it...but after having watched the movie...well, it had picked up upon so many 'themes' let us say...that MI5 had been 'watching' and taking account of...well it is a bit 'uncanny' isn't it? "to say the least" replies MI5 ONLINE....watch the movie and work it out.

anyway, last night i was to go back...to shanghai 2003...to remember a really 'odd one'...in short, mcdonald and i - had been framed up by mr putin....who had been using sonia fisher and mark vizard to do his 'dirty work'...mr putin, sonia and mark had been residing at the shanghai jiao tong university academic center during that 'conference' which took place during the SARS epidemic in shanghai....see previous notes upon the 'tank and armed military forces' at the gates of that university etc etc...

putin had decided that i must not know that sonia and mark were even there...never mind involved in any of his operations.

sonia was allowed access to my room at that center...to choose a white and light blue striped teeshirt along with my short chinos trousers....she was then to take part in an operation...which was to involved CF along with a member of chinese intelligence...a young woman-science-degree-student who had befriended me as a 'guide'...the one who had the 'keys to the campus' as it were...her daddy was a 'masonic number' i suppose....as well as being linked to the communist party and chinese intelligence....anyway, she was to attempt to befriend nir...he was to rebuff her advances....go figure....

what else? well....'somebody went off of the foreign students' building' - to their death...sonia, CF and the student mentioned above...were responsible for 'that one'....sonia had been carrying a certain 'control box'.....see previous notes upon brand and another 'control box' which was to make ingabot murder her mother, inga....go figure.

how do i know about the above?

from chinese cctv....CF had fled the building like a bat out of hell...sonia was not so fleet of foot....time was of the essence...they had both been working around what that young chinese woman student had told them..."they will all be asleep at that hour"...those in the academic center along with 'campus cctv'...go figure....

the chinese student went to the left of the building and sonia had gone to the right...sonia had been picked up on cctv....she had my clothes on...but she was not my height (at least 3 inches shorter)...she was of a petite bone structure and not a large-boned one....and most importantly of all, mcdonald...she had long (dyed) blonde 'wavy' thickish hair....she hadn't bothere to cut it, you see...."oh it'll do!" she had laughed to vizard and putin....mcodonald - remember SC telling me that my 'short bob' of dyed blonde hair was far too 'thick'...you then made it 'very thin'....so thin and so short...just below my earlobes...that i was worried 'upon this side of the mirror' that i had suddenly become 'very sick'....cancer...no, nothing like that as it turned out...hairloss is worrying, isn't it?...and not by chance, as it turns out...

in synposis....putin had got vizard and fisher to use 'equipment' to make a 'biological robot' go off of that roof...i am being told that it was 'nir hoffman' and that it was all covered up, afterwards...if that is true - well then of course they would never have been able to make me do it...see previous notes upon a certain templar castle function, as to 'why'...nir and i, had had a short 'love affair' together (brought to a short halt - by tomlinson attacking him - in 'guarddog' mode and biting off his foreskin)...

....to whit - i would never have been persuaded and by anybody, to 'do nir in' - can you see why?...hadn't he suffered enough?.....etc etc....

...however, i might 'torture' those-that-i-have-loved, a little...see previous notes upon my revelations regarding andrew marr's gang....however, i am a bit 'italian' in that way....i would never kill somebody that i loved....i would try to make them 'see the error of their ways' in so many 'games'...so many ways....but that is as far as it goes....go figure.

...but there were others who would have been persuaded to do 'just that'...and why? i began to scan for answers...this morning...to come up with the following....

mr putin, sonia and mark...had a 'gameplan'....and the idea behind 'sending that person off of that building' by a remote-device....was to 'net' that japanese nazi/death-head cult...the one that had been breezing through gill....

i cannot explain the above, more than that...only that russian intelligence were to see it as 'lemmings off of a cliff into a net'....

"putin had been going for control of japanese 'deadhead' intelligence" replies MI5 ONLINE...yes, i 'get' what you are going for there....but i am not going to comment upon it...

all i can say is this...as i have said before now....mr putin and eliza manningham-buller were 'best friends' in the political as well as spying world...she had wanted to cover up what norwegian intelligence/princess anne....were doing in those 'royal genome project factories' down japan's coastlines....

US intelligence...as in the pentagon...well, if you can get somebody else to do it, why not? something that i have already mentioned in notes - some time ago, now....the pentagon had wanted those 'embarrassing' factories down away with...seeing as chinese intelligence had infiltrated them and looked likely....as if they would spread the 'photos' - across the internets....the entire world.

....and so what are we left with? me...very angry...about how the 'macro' was handled...US top brass military not doing a thing, about what eliza and putin, had been up to - regarding the destruction of japan....because to my mind, it was all about covering up for norwegian intelligence....e.g. princess anne...prince william...prince charles....and those who run them from behind...go figure.