anyway, what else? those watching on the CCTV...were to laugh about how easily I was to obtain the names of those two women 'by the desk' near to the main door - in writing (although jasmine didn't give her surname)...and those laughing?....those like daldry and rimington...

let me see....spying and criminal types of behaviour often go 'hand in hand' (e.g. in that you are 'on your guard' because you don't want to be found out)...let me explain...you are taught never to give your name unless it is necessary whilst on an operation and if anybody asks you for yours...make sure that you don't give it whilst getting theirs....which is basically what I was to do...after TRUDI had asked me for my name and details to go down on a 'database'...her words...because they are apparently lottery-funded and need all details of anybody interested in becoming a volunteer at IMPERIAL HOUSE...."we need your details for our database"...she had a database form with her....

anyway, I was to politely reply that I didn't like to give out details before I had researched whatever it was...'but i'll tell you what....I'll get onto the internet later on and write up how impressed I was by your presentation' etc etc...I then handed the pen back to her and the back of a sheet of paper that I had just picked up...along with a dvd that I had just borrowed, using a self-service unit...a dvd that acted as a board upon which to write...trudi entered her name without hesitation.....jasmine looked like she was going to faint with fear...go figure...and all the while I was scanning to find out what was going on with the pair of them...what their relationship was...why did jasmine look like she was going to keel over...why was trudi acting like her support worker etc etc...and that is how I got their names, dear reader...without giving mine...although just after I had stood 'out of the way'...to have a good look at the man standing behind me...he appeared to be 'blank'...as if he had no idea what he was doing there...'vacant'..."under mind control"....anyway, I had a good look at him...scanned him...and then turned to walk out of the library...and it was only at that point...that trudi was to realise that she hadn't even got my name....I happily replied "Emily"....having decided that I was no longer in danger, as it were...having not given any other details.....go figure....

SIS out in the open...in your local library and so 'innocent'...the whole thing is like the 'worst nightmare' you could imagine...and sometimes I don't want to believe that any of it is happening at all...but it is...look at that FCO number at the top of that NHS letter...try and send an email to that non-functioning email address...try ringing up that manningtree telephone number to find that all you get is three bleeps and then you are cut off...do you see how it goes? oh and why is a manningtree number given...when it is a Chelmsford and Colchester NHS service?

....and the dvd that I was to get out? well somebody has repositioned the dvd displays upon the first floor...and the H section was 'in the middle' ...the display nearest to the door....that dvd was at the end of that H section....in short, I spotted it immediately...along with the FO hat upon the front....hmmm...it just seemed 'right'...go figure...

I had already picked up that flyer MY SOCIAL PRESCRIPTION at the front desk...upon the groundfloor...whilst watching that young man studiously reading my fax and NHS letter before sending the fax....now I understand that library staff have to check what they send using their 'services'...just in case it happens to be illegal or 'unacceptable' to their regulations...but to blatantly read somebody else's personal correspondence....and he took ages doing it...well something wasn't right - was it?

naturally I didn't say a word..."less is more" as daldry used to say...and when in doubt...don't say a word...just scan and make a note of everything that happens....daldry was to tell me that when set upon by 'undesirables'...it is best not to say a word...just watch them...every move that they make etc etc...go figure...

anyway, having got that dvd out...I was then set upon by those two women standing by the door...I picked up one of their leaflets...see below....whilst they told me about volunteering...and then asked me for my details for their database...go figure...

and why had they 'jumped' on me? they both respond to the scarlett pink card...i.e. the card folder that I was carrying at the time....