so today was all about alison, gill? "just write what you can remember"

well she appeared to be following daldry's maxim...at essex...join every club, society and activity....she also did lots of sport and keepfit...along with a stint at the university's radio network - one night a week....a 'samaritans' number....alison was doing a degree in sociology but she had her sights set on getting onto a trainee managerial course at a multinational technology company....which she then managed to do, with ease - after the jobs fair....the cypriots were to ask her if she would be working at the top of a high-rise building in london...she was to laugh that she would be "in the clouds"....'with her head in the clouds'.....what else? well alison could check every HR box in terms of 'self-motivation'....'hardworking'...team-player'...very 'social' etc etc...and so as far as the rest of us were concerned...she could have got onto any trainee course going..."in big business" but she had targeted one in particular....i cannot remember which multinational as yet...but seeing as SONY were to come up earlier...well, who knows?

fred's friend was to look at me, with a wry smile this morning and politely inquire as to whether i was a social worker or not....i replied that i was not...but i had worked with learning disability people in manningtree...he then began to talk about manningtree...and then ipswich and harwich...go figure.

alison had been a 'natural' at social work, let us say...she used to involve herself in so many people's lives...and do the best she could to sort out their problems...if you put her into a group - she would immediately start to organise it....and that is why i was quizzical about her choice of career....surely it went against how she liked to live her life....so many friends, all over the place...interests/hobbies etc....she had to fill in 2 sides of A4 to list 'everything' at the end of her application papers....even down to the 'silly stuff'...something around a 'snail-racing club'?

...but there is more to it than that...as i can now remember....her boyfriend was an indian computer sciences student at london university.....he used to come down at the weekends, now and then....i can remember tomlinson getting worried "he shouldn't do that"....anyway, alison used to rigorously structure her week...24/7...every hour accounted for....she used to slot people in, to see them, upon a timetable....and i can finally remember why....

one afternoon, in that shared flat...her boyfriend had been examining her timetable....she was to tell him "i can't quite remember what happened there..." - a two hour block...supposedly for sociology classes....he was to say 'as a matter of urgency'...."you have to remember...you have to....make a record of everything"....now, remember my mother talking about 'unaccounted for time' - in relation to my father? well there was an air of quiet desperation about alison....as if she filled her day up, to avoid walking off a cliff and into the abyss....anyway, i can now see that she was one of those who could 'remember everything'...a bit like little colin...

what else? alison was to remind me of 'rachel jones' at solihull 6th form...remember how rachel had come from a good christian home....and used to live her life in a 'model' way? to then be used by the ill cult...as a cloud slave...at the highest levels....wiped and rewritten like a floppy disk....a change of ID...a change of CEO role...that sort of thing...well i would guess that the same thing, had happened to alison...."a cloud slave"....however, there is an oddity here...because i was to ask alison about her family...and she was to tell me that she had been adopted...she then appeared to change her mind about 'something'...she then said that she was an orphan...and then "oh forget about it"...as if she had drawn a blank...at any rate, she didn't want to talk about it...and so what had been going on there, then?

what else, gill? well you were to say that she had done a lot to help me...and you, too...and the next thing to come up...is something around solihull LEA...and alison having been there, at some point...after she had left the university....i was told to remember the floppy disks....the wiping and the rewriting....you see, whilst at solihull LEA...i had met somebody who was to make light of my two years 'in the fires of hell' at essex....along the lines of "oh so it didn't work out then? well, you can have three more years' grant - some degrees take 4 years....one year at bournville and two more at...." - i was then told to 'wipe and rewrite' what i had done, at essex....a memory command....you see, all i had done at essex...was write those harry potter books...i hadn't attended lectures or classes....i had used the library, as a resource for writing those books....and nearly died, as a result....tomlinson used to come round and threaten to kill me if i didn't supply him with a load more chapters...it was a bit like writing for a soap opera, aired twice a week...because according to tomlinson...not only eliza manningham-buller but also the royal family, had become interested...and i had to 'supply on demand'....and the only thought in my head at the time...was that one day, i would be an author...which was not to be, as it turned out...see previous notes....anyway, decades later on - i was to feel vindicated...having remembered what i had done, at essex...this was before the last book was published....i had stated in my notes....that i had refused to write the last book....long before 'rowling' got writer's block and didn't seem to be able to write that last novel....oh and see previous notes upon that templar castle event...where marr was to coordinate the 'collective writing' of that last book...taking a leaf out of the book of the collective writing team at the CIA LAB?...or perhaps scarlett's police at the met - in their office...those who used to write so many 'bestselling' crime fiction books, together...as a team....see previous notes...go figure.