...last night, i was reminded of malcolm (and his prague partner, 'misha') along with his gay mates at MI5...who had found out so much about 'block of wood' in prague...starting with....covert cctv of kate wood and lisa, in malcolm's flat....installed by gill (who else?)....in short..."they had wrecked the place"..."hoped to blame it on you"....additionally they had said some terrible things about malcolm and misha - really offensive stuff - and homophobia was the least of it, all - go figure....oh dear....anyway - at least, they were 'exposed' for it 'on camera' (is that why malcolm then joined daldry in that 'channel-everything-you-can' session at rifkind's 'inauguration party' (see previous notes upon the so- called new 'ambassador' to austria and the czech republic etc etc)....although, it has to be said - that malcolm had a hard time, afterwards, didn't he?....seeing as he was sharing an office with another 'block of wood' i.e. tess - the british studies magazine editor - and didn't know it...."never did a stroke of work"......and that is what kate wood had looked like, isn't it? "an evil dobbin the mule"....it's no fairytale, is it?...although the young british princes were to see block of wood, as just that....just like their mother...DTOM peter smith used to say that block of wood looked just like lady diana - and well, what can one say except that they were both tall and they were both blonde but that is where the similarity ended, in terms of appearance - block of wood's visage, looked just like 'dobbin the mule' and her head was too large for her body....oh and in terms of 'background'....block of wood had also come from a moneyed class - nota bene, middleclass and not aristocracy....a millionaire father - a pony in a paddock....block of wood had never wanted for anything and yet she was to describe herself as a 'working girl' to malcolm "to make him feel sorry for her".....whilst going out 'on the pull' in prague, at the weekends - making a bit on the side..."reminds us of prince edward's wife"...oh and where did the money for that 'des res' 2 bedroom flat, near to the centre, come from - then? "daddy" replies MI5 ONLINE...well, yes - as i have already noted - she wasn't that successful at 'pulling' was she?....anyway, the rest of us, had to 'make do' with flat locations - 'at the end of more than one tram/busline' - travelling in and out of the city, every day - 1-2 hours' worth of commuting - both ways, upon a daily basis whilst block of wood had it so 'easy' - in a rented flat that would have set her back about a year's worth of a british council english teacher's sterling salary and upon a monthly basis e.g. £1000....go figure.

...and yet, i was to feel so terriby sad - a certain 'depression'....such sympathy for kate wood (despite 'knowing' that she really wasn't right in the head and had had such a 'bad effect' upon the whole workplace - i.e. those who used to literally 'trance out', after a bit too much of that norwegian intelligence 'moaning droning machine')....anyway, after seeing kate 'so exhausted' at a certain party thrown by DTOM peter smith....she was lying back in a large armchair at the time - legs and arms, akimbo...lisa was to tell me, somewhat worriedly "come and see kate"....i asked kate what was wrong..."i just feel so exhausted - i can't even get up"....and yet, she had 'high colour' in her cheeks and so i just figured....overwork?....hmmm....and now i know the whole truth about 'that number'....CF had moved into her spare bedroom....made her practice 'irish dancing', for hours, after work - in order to do that 'scottish dancing' public performance - until she was almost dead-from-exhaustion....and then he had drained her of blood....she was to end up in hospital....to get 'topped up' with a universal type etc etc and survived - somewhat miraculously....do you see how it goes?

....it's no fairytale, is it?.....the way in which women are used and abused by this cult....

....and today, i was reminded of 'that one'....whilst standing in line...in the 'fast tills' queue at M&S....an elderly woman, who appeared to have something like...well, what hanni had suffered from....'the shakes' in terms of her hands....my father was to say that it was something like 'parkinson's' but not....additionally, dr tony smith was also diagnosed as having 'something like parkinson's' but not....anyway, let me continue....her 'shaking' began to visibly worsen until her left hand was shaking horribly...uncontrollably....after she had just seen, 'the man behind me'...and so i turned around, to view him....a sort of 'ray-fishwick-meets-mr-peacock-spider-eyes' see previous notes.....those eyes....huge-grey-myopic-eyes-magnified-behind-glasses....he was carrying one solitary item....a strawberry jelly trifle....and then i 'knew' what was up....see previous notes upon zygote slavery...and why that elderly woman - after seeing 'mr peacock-type'....moved as far away as she possibly could, whilst glancing back, nervously - because by that point in time - she couldn't control her left hand's movements at all - she was virtually waving that shaking hand, up and down....as it goes, eh?...the masons and what they had done to those like hanni...those good women - who worked for the good of everybody, all of the days and years of their lives....but what can you do?....it is so depressing to recount, day after day...what these sick men have done to women-like-that....to go over it all, again and again...the oujji board - the satanic impregnations/abortions etc etc....put yourself in my shoes....go figure.

...anyway, 'help' appeared to be 'at hand' at the tills....a new appointment at M&S...one of malcolm's old mates....MI5...he had been in switzerland...and he had interviewed hanni, just before her demise...and upon 'everything'....see previous notes upon hanni and her old 'friend-from-work' (she had given him the job because he had been the best one at it)....the gay nurse, who had then met 'the love of his life' - as a patient, at a certain hospital...an army major (hanni was to arrange things, for them - behind the scenes and in such an innocent way - see previous notes)....they were then to settle - near, to clacton....and they used to invite hanni, to dinner....every year....and send her a bouquet of flowers, upon her birthday....a really expensive number....go figure.

...what else? i was reminded of RH's cruel remark/taunt to hanni...along the lines of "are you a lesbian?"...hanni was to answer it, in a dignified way....she had been in love....but her youngest sister had then married him....and after that....well, she hadn't met anybody else....

....and later on....i was to ask hanni, about the whole thing....she was to show me a photograph of her 'twin'....."she died when i was young....but there isn't a day when i don't think about her"....

....and now, after so many years...i think that i 'get' hanni...with respect to the above....i look back....but not 'in anger'....and i remember 'little gill' crawling down that corridor, behind me....see previous notes upon 'what-happened-in-ein-kerem'.....and i think...."these are my happiest memories"....things that i can escape to, when things get really bad....you see - i am now beginning to remember us all, as children - just innocent children....and despite what terrible things, were to happen to us, during our childhood (the whole mkultra program - see previous notes upon how michael richardson's gang used to handle programmers/paedophiles deemed 'not to be useful')....when i think back, that far...to when, we were all still....so 'alive' (because some of us then joined scarlett's 'afterlife', during adulthood etc etc)....still happy, lively...still playing around....and that is what keeps me sane...remembering the 'happy, crazy times' of my childhood...you see, despite the austere and NHS matronly control, that hanni used to exert (in the 60s) - there was always a 'happy child' laughing-at-everything, underneath...hanni's kitchen, little lisa - do you remember?....the 'straight from the oven' currant buns and the glazing...a nob of butter and the swiss quince jelly....or crab apple, if you prefer....go figure.

lisa's mum was no slouch, when it came to the kitchen, either....she was the 'queen of pickles'....she was then to try her hand at 'crab apple jelly'...."the queen of jams" her husband was to comment...."so much trouble for only one jar" lisa's mum was to reply....but she was happy that little lisa enjoyed it all, so much....too much, in fact....because 'daddy' was then stopped from dipping his spoon into that jar, again..."my jar!" - little lisa put her foot down etc etc....go figure.

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....what else?....well the latest edition of PRIVATE EYE was to make me laugh....yes, i can understand the idea of 'brexit' in terms of 'becoming like the swiss' but not if you have a 'british royal family' that steals the lot, before it even gets anywhere near the NHS....and not if you have a 'norwegian intelligence plant' like theresa 'no brains' may, in charge of the 'intelligensia-think-tank' to do carry it out etc etc....

....you see, there are 'pros' and 'cons' to every situation....aren't there?....every case is different etc etc....and yes, i understand that 'taxes-to-rome' analogy in relation to the EU, mr icke....but sometimes, you have to be a bit cleverer than that...because sometimes, it is actually wiser to pay those taxes....whilst you still have a 'puppet monarchy' in charge of your respective country - a so-called 'puppet monarchy' (run by norwegian intelligence, in the main - although MI5 were to find out that queen elizabeth II is actually run by a 'south african mob' - and from early childhood - see previous notes upon 'happy valley' time etc etc)....anyway, a monarchy - that is above the law - and governing the laws-of-this-country, 'from behind'...go figure.

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....what else?....well, from the macro...to the micro....remember that 'dead cheap' frozen cauliflower - on sale - at M&S not so long ago?...incredibly cheap....well, i was to spot another item, today.....4 cans of M&S baked beans.....the display shelf stated £1.25 for 4 cans of beans....and so naturally, i was to decide to buy them....to then find out, that upon the till receipt...they were to come up as 97p for 4...is that right, M&S?...in pictures....go figure.