hadfield was obviously top military himself and furious about the type of abuse that gill had been put through 'under mind control'...."we are fighting to stop this" he was to tell us...and yes that video was taken by mcdonald - we were all watching, at the time....

abuse takes many forms....the HH were to wonder why my passport had been used by 'another woman' once - during those years....but i couldn't remember why - to tell them, at the time...which is just as well....

emet and brenda were to tell me that one of their NASA operatives had used it...an EASTERN STAR operation...her mother had been in danger....i was to look at the situation and explain to the HH that it wasn't a case of 'abuse' per se....but i wondered about emet's angle upon things - was this a potential blackmail ploy? i began to wonder if i could trust him that far....anyway, i looked at the whole eastern star thing and even though i hadn't been asked beforehand for the use of my passport....the eastern star had a main theme running through the organisation and that is veneration and protection of your mother...i looked at the operation and told brenda that i thought that it had been 'expedient'...she replied 'put yourself in her shoes'...i did so and realised that i would most probably have 'done the same thing' in relation to protecting my own mother...it is just that it looked 'expedient' without empathising with the person who had done it - and i had been disinclined to empathise because my passport had been used without my knowing and i was a bit nettled by it all...i then began to realise what a powerful network eastern star was.....but then it is masonic....the operation had been quickly and easily executed...quite brilliant...if only for the fact that the HH were tracking and tracing me...and had wanted to know who she was....well i still don't know...no further information...matter closed. It is enough that...'if they ever found out what she had done to right so many wrongs' - that those in authority already know that it wasn't me using the passport at the time....and that i hadn't given anybody permission to use it, at the time....you cannot really give permission after the event - can you?