'secret escapes'.....

i was on the 'german as a first language list'.....but my first language was really french.

i was on the 'white arab' list too.

how did i end up as 'german white arab'?

this morning, i realised that petrol nell was supposed to break into this flat and 'get me back under MKULTRA control' - yes, really.....they always 'send her in' when really in trouble....see key notes on eagle house, west street, harwich.....

at templar castle events....i had actually made friends - with the original 'petrol nell'.....because i liked working with people who worked with a 'higher purpose in mind'....for example - we were all given a brief - to invent a new soup recipe for M&S.....petrol nell and i, were teamed up together....we got on perfectly well....mark r was amazed....petrol nell didn't get on with anybody.....but we both had the same 'mind-set' in a way.....forget personal differences and perform the task in order to be successful.....we created the recipe for that 'tarka dahl' soup.....the spicy one, based upon indian dahl and then a herb/spices paste....and with a few stewed potatoes, chopped up - thrown in, to give it more calories and a bit of a substantial 'kick' to it.....M&S boss liked it a lot...it didn't win the competition in the end, but it was a 'contender' as he was to tell us, at the time....did we get paid for that invention? i am shaking my head as i type.....

yes it is all sounding like ZOOLANDER in relation to BIG BUSINESS but that is the way that it worked....and that film is far more important than anybody figures......in the 'reviews' section, that is.

my point here is this - i had found out that 'working with intelligent people' who will 'work as a team' to a common objective' such as create a brilliant soup - is 'okay'.....working towards other things with that type of person - whom you had formerly 'got on with' isn't......but i knew that anyway......

"alot of people don't - it is important to mention it - in relation to the military - specifically US MILITARY" replies BRENDA ONLINE.

anyway, petrol nell and i 'parted company' once she had decided to 'gain power' via tomlinson's cult - - nell had been put into the 'arabic group' at the templar castle but none of the women liked or trusted her - despite her taking immediate control of the entire group - the real leader had been RAMA as far as i can remember (see previous notes) i was an outsider - simply because i looked so very different.....

TOMLINSON's cult....his idea being - to create 'gang warfare upon every street in the UK'.....

and i was dragged behind tomlinson and rimington, by the hair, during templar castle events -around behind them.....and into this whole hell-hole now....

OTHER NOTES:

i was thinking about donna and myself this morning...we had both agreed 'under mind control' to do what we are doing now....at BELLE COURT 'so many years ago' now.....

.....we had agreed to 'do it' and 'go through with it'....but not fully realising the 'cost'....or the 'sick audience' that would be hoping to view......apart from 'the few' who knew enough about the whole thing - and have kept us safe, throughout......

in relation to what we have been through:

 the heart strings are pulled so violently sometimes.....donna, for example.....used to be a 'rather handsome semitic bloke' at exeter university....under the control of LIZ.....see previous notes.....

donna was then to 'change sex'....to go 'undercover'......and yes donna likes being a woman - no doubt about that at all.....but he was to think 'at the end of it all - i'll turn back into a bloke - once this is all over'.....

....and rather like donna, i was think - go 'undercover' and 'well i'll get through peter bruff - pick up all of the information necessary etc'.....

but you see how it goes?

donna then gets faced with 'daughter'....but not his real daughter.....the ill had put one in, to really fuck him up....not his real daughter this time around.....a 'she-man'....a teenage she-man....to really 'do donna over'.....

and then his cageroom gets hit by a 'load of real shit'....to destroy that mattress that had cost him thousands.....at which point, donna began saying 'that's the end'.....that's it...shaking 'his/her' head....that is really IT......

do you see how it goes?

we are all mkultra slaves....but in order to escape mind control and 'wake up' to the whole thing....our lives....our memories....we are 'shat upon and from a great height'....and continue to be shat upon....whilst on CCTV.....all of us in this block....supposedly under 'police protection programmes'....

the young woman...young mother in flat 3.....she had been offered the job of 'stardom' in the 'breaking dawn' films.....rodway and williams had wanted her to do it....the ill had set up an 'offer'...you either have you own family or become a hollywood star - with no hope of ever having you own family (your sexual organs taken out and then a 'pretence pregnancy' with a 'stolen baby' in your arms).....

she chose 'streetlevel' - and to have her own family......that is why she is now in BELLE COURT at this point in time....hollywood material....but having been a young girl at the time, who had 'turned the lot down'....she is now being harrassed to the nth degree, because of it.....

the ill want to try and turn her children into ZYGOTE SLAVES......see previous notes.


OTHER NOTES:

whilst those like my sister HELEN WEALE get off - scot-free....

i hadn't understood why...until really thinking about it yesterday.....

first up - i was relayed the images of my parents in interlaken, the last time that they were there.....

NASA wanted to know why my mother had accused hanni.....and my father had stood 'out of her sight' behind her and to an 'angle'....a specific angle....my parents were acting as 'nazi interrogators'.....and their main question to her, had been 'what did you tell emily?'......hanni refused to understand anything that they were saying....kept her eyes firmly closed and replied in swiss german....they had to 'leave off' in the end.....

what are my parents up to? how dare they harm hanni in that way?

how dare they?

i began to think a bit more 'about the whole thing'....

i thought about 'helen weale'....the feeble-minded and feeble-bodied INGABOT that my family had raised......as the 'most important child of the lot'......the CUCKOO in our midst......

i then thought about cameron......how i had empathised with him deeply.....once his ill cult wife had killed his disabled child.....and how he had still managed 'not to go insane'....whilst being run by his ill cult she-man wife....in office....as PM.

i thought about the disabled and those with a learning disability......i thought about acorn villages ltd....i thought about gill with his ill cult rockefeller cuckoo daughter......he had LOVED her so much, thinking that she was his child.....not knowing that 'she' wasn't his own offspring......but even if she hadn't been....gill was the 'type of person' to care about those who cannot defend themselves.....he would have loved her 'all the same'.....

i then realised what i was looking at.....

you have a child that isn't 'quite the same' as your other children......that child bends your heart-strings to the nth degree - it 'twangs them' like nothing else.....that child is always in trouble....nothing is 'easy' for them......that child might be disabled or simply socially inept -  they might be simply unable to 'get a grip' on the social forces at school.....nobody likes them....

i then looked back at my parents and 'understood' why they had wanted to help HELEN WEALE....she had been the 'feeble one' out of the lot of us.....look at her YOUTUBE representation of herself....a mother who is losing it, she isn't in control of what she does.......she gives a 'mad grin' to camera.....

i figured....yes, that is how i always felt about my sister helen....she is feeble....she is 'not in control'....she is just a helpless duckling and it is OUR DUTY AS A FAMILY to stand together and always help her out....

and then i thought....'for my parents own protection' they have to realise that the 'feeble middle-aged mother' called helen weale - has tried to murder them - not once but several times......stick that in your pipe and smoke it.