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...I remember now...the name of that 'pick-up-sticks' game had been something like SPILLIKINS and the 'ball on spillikins' game had been called KERPLUNK!

i was also to remember an assorted group of young people...we were all still teenagers, i suppose or in our early twenties...round at andrew trig's house...a programmer was present and we had been given the 's-pill' as he was to call it...he then asked for programming ideas in relation to spillikins....anagrams...that type of thing...somebody suggested 'lip sink'....'lip synch'....in relation to a video of lionel richie singing 'once, twice three times a lady' - which is currently available on youtube...so we all had a go with spillikins, in a circle...and then lip synched to that pop song...it was all a laugh really...and then the programmer asked us to 'sink our lips' onto the lips of the person, seated next to us, in the circle...well some of those present were already couples and so there was no 'embarrassment'...but for others....i was seated by trig's best friend called 'anthony'....anthony.

after the session was finished...and the others had left the room...i went over to have a chat with the programmer...he was to tell me the following:

along the lines of "...you must never let martin gill know (about 'anthony colin') or he will kill you...you are fated to marry martin and become a 'grass widow'."...i solemnly promised that martin would never know...

...but with memory dump and 'all that'...how long did that 'promise' last? "a couple of years" replies MI5 ONLINE...who appear to have gone over all of this, beforehand...."until you got to dartington"...see previous notes.

for my own part...i had no idea that trig even knew farrell...(but of course, there was the irish connection - see previous notes upon tib's gang)...never mind trig being his best friend, at the time...i had thought that 'anthony' was one of gill's close friends from solihull school...but there again, trig had been there too - martin had got andrew expelled from that school, for trying to 'jump' him - go figure....

....i can remember sue whalley talking about trig's best friend, anthony...how lovely he was and how she was almost tempted to dump trig...because anthony was such a gentle person...such a good listener etc etc...well that 'spillikins night' i was to learn that there was another teenager in that group - who thought the same way - but more passionately...as we filed out of the house...she was to hiss at me that anthony was 'hers' and to leave off or else...and that was 'celia'...the one that sue had been so very jealous of, in relation to andrew...complications...complications...everybody seemed to know so much more and remember so much more about 'everything' than i did...

it was only decades later on, that i was to find out why....as a remoteviewer and 'reader of future scripts'... the ill had decided that it wasn't a good idea to let 'people like me' know what 'powers' we had...so in the main, we were kept in the dark...until we began to find ways around it....see previous notes upon sonia fisher and mark vizard telling me that the ill "never know if you are lying...you don't have to tell them the truth about any of it...they cannot see what you are seeing" etc etc...the idea being that if you lied, you at least - had a chance...because otherwise they would use their knowledge of the future, against you...additionally we had to find ways of remembering what we had 'seen' because normally you cannot remember what you have said, at all - after coming back from that 'altered state'...so the ill can say "you said x/y/z" and you haven't got a clue...

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so am I now a 'grass widow', I ask myself? I do not even know what the phrase really means...

anyway, having learnt that I was 'married' to gill....in Israel 2007...unless somebody has 'changed the record fast' in recent history...which is of course, likely - given the expose of everything, upon this blog...well, BI ONLINE has been making sounds around 'bad jokes'...centring upon sending the whole of the RA CULT off on 'one-way trips to heaven'...one way trips to the sun...cut-price tickets and a super-safe anti-sun suit...that sort of thing...and my generation had grown up thinking that MARS was supposed to be full of erupting volcanoes...but a trip to the sun? and the sad thing is that I just 'know' that a sizeable amount of people would sign up for it..."live your dream on the Sun"...

so was gill really on that plane? did it do an almost vertical ascent - straight towards the Sun? I have no further information...however 'martini' checks in to see what I am doing with 'her' laptop now and then...so I am pretty sure that gill wasn't on it...

BI ONLINE appears to think that I am 'haunted'...all I can say is that I am not going down that path, at all...I might add that as a child I had sincerely wanted to believe in ghosts and to that end....I had tried to meet a real 'ghost' - but having visited quite a few 'haunted houses' and locations...I was ultimately disappointed...'no ghosts' anywhere...or not when I was around...