oh i see...thankfully somebody has spelled it out for me....
'spare us the cutter'
SKINNY PUPPY and the girl/woman who 'cut herself'.....those who 'cut' themselves.....dibbens had been very concerned with those like 'LOU' at dartington....she used to threaten to do it, at his home....a bottle of vodka in one hand...and a razor blade in the other....at dartington...well at his family home, cottage in totnes.....
BOGDAN was to 'confess' because he felt it a 'show of weakness' that after his wife had been murdered....he had this insane 'need' to cut himself....but he REFUSED to do it....the 'auto-suggestions' in his head...that this would somehow 'relieve the pain'....the tannoy system which kept on telling him that if he felt 'extreme pain' by cutting himself - 'more pain but only in relation to immediate PHYSICAL pain - that he would no longer be able to remember the PSYCHOLOGICAL trauma of losing his wife - cutting himself would replace 'psychological pain'
....and the memory of what the ill had done to his wife with a need to relieve himself by inflicting physical pain, upon his own body.......
you know how when you are GRIEVING whatever it is....and for example - hammering a nail into a piece of wood....you hit your thumb and scream in agony...hop around a bit with your hand inbetween your legs....and then after the pain subsides...you begin to laugh with relief - momentarily you have forgotten your 'grief'....you are 'alive' again and 'surviving the pain' to see that 'it wasn't that bad'.....that is 'what it is like'...and upon a physiological level? endomorphins to the brain....you go 'on a bit of a high'...
BOGDAN had been relentlessly told....by an AMADEUS/MI6 tannoy CD - that he would forget about his wife having been murdered in front of his eyes, by the ill cult....
if he could really get into MASOCHISM....i.e. 'relieving himself through physical pain'.....he resisted such pressure...he refused to do it...he fought the ill - to the last.
"we know which department that was" says RAIM....
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DIBBENS was to say of 'his man'...."he was incredibly brave to make that video...and got a huge amount of support afterwards for being that brave...in times when it wasn't possible (to be so)'....
the guy who had made the nearly quarter of an hour long video by 'guessimjustaspudboy' - see post below....and i just want to 'whip through' the salient points and don't have time to 'lose track' by watching anything over about minute - unless i 'lose my thread of inquiry'....
in relation to the HQ that RAIM mentioned?
i have just had an image back of a 'base' exploding into flames....a huge ball of fire.
anyway, i had a 'conflict' with dibbens at the time....in the similar way, to the way that i had had a conversation with caroline about the ACCA videos....'i do not have time to watch it all'....i want it condensed....she realised that number and put up a condensed video on 'icanhascheezburger'.....
the same 'went' for that HOLLIDAY 'over an hour long video' about 'esoteric nonsense' around ill cult medical science....THE PHARMACRATIC INQUISTION was full of 'loaded' and 'coded' negative and insidious stuff....which ' this time around' i haven't bothered to watch more than a few minutes of either'....it is really nasty stuff....crafted to make you 'turn to the ill'.....
so i haven't watched more than two minutes of 'dibben's buddy' talking about whatever.....
all i can say is this:
dibbens was always 'difficult' as per fucking usual....
and granted if i had the time - i would look through a 'by the way video' of more than a minute...rather than one that only has TWO THINGS NECESSARY FOR MY ATTENTION....
yes the guy in his video 'is a hero' and that is apparently what BI thought - they inundated him with emails etc thanking him for his contribution....for doing what he did 'in those times'....but he could also have done a 1 minute video...condensing the lot....
dibbens was 'pleasing ill cult masters' at that point in time, as far as i was concerned....and also referring to the fact that his 'buddy' was microchipped to be something like a 'master'....
oh i see....i get it now...his 'buddy' ended up as MASH.....
and DIBBENS had suspected FRENCH INTELLIGENCE as being behind it.....something like that?
well why put him 'on stage' if you thought that was going to happen to him? knowing that you couldn't protect him?
i do not see any 'sense' in any of this at all.....
"he had an important part of the ill cult financial program in his head" replied dibbens.
the 'mashed potatoes' element?
he was a 'potatohead chip'.....
OTHER NOTES:
Anyway, who would be reading my blog - at this point in time - within the future?
much younger generations....post-harry potter generations.....
all i can say now...which i couldn't to DIBBENS at that point in time - at an MI6 OFFICE...was that 'guy on a sofa' talking about 'nothing relevant to their young lives' wasn't the way to go....
YES skinny puppy is very interesting and dibbens had recommended their 'stage show' to the MASONS in order to 'work out what it was all about'....as far as i can remember, the masons 'didn't get it at all'....but then they didn't 'get' the references did they? how could they? how could anybody? 'red river tongue' freize - upon obscure ROMANIAN monastery - conflated with skinny puppy's LIGHT SHOW on stage?
OTHER NOTES:
but in relation to a 'popgroup' from many years ago.....all of whom, had had the BRAVERY not to 'sit in their front room and talk about SHit to a videocam'.....but to get up on STAGE and do it.....in PUBLIC.
for example:
ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN and their SPARE US THE CUTTER.
it all begins to 'make sense' and we are nearer to the 'core' of that onion.
and no, i don't 'just fancy pretty boys' dibbens.....you know as well as i do.....the 'thing' you had about MARTIN GILL.....
i never fancied the lead singer of ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN but i acknowledge that his 'prettiness' stands the test of time....and that is what will interest 'teenagers of today'.....he was a major member of the rebel group.....
and that is why i dig up the videos......of these past popgroups.....because 'in those days' they were really coded out....with 'what my generation had been programmed with'....and it is a healing device for myself....
i can remember dibbens retorting "only interested in YOURSELF are you?"
that is not the POINT dibbens - as i was to remind him.....i am interested in my WHOLE GENERATION which was programmed with this type of thing....all i can do is to track and trace programming, through my own experience of my OWN GENERATION.....
dibbens still didn't appear to 'get it' and eyed me....
i thought 'oh for G-d's sake' and walked away....
DIBBENS had been claiming to be an older generation...i am not sure how much older....considering he had met caroline as a 'young child' at an ill cult 'find a friend' daisy-chain event.....
perhaps caroline was a lot older than myself....it looks likely doesn't it, gill? she had gone 'grey haired' early on....and in france...i couldn't believe it...at least 5 years until i got my 'first one'....
so about ten years older.....that is what the 'master' reckons.....
okay a 'different generation' but why take it out on me, because i am not dealing with their particular programming materials? i am dealing with GENERIC ones.....
dibbens didn't get the fact that teenagers would be reading my blog and 'find it funny' as well as realising that those like ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN had been 'important' within the whole rebel crusade.....
they are not 'just a pretty face'....as you well know DIBBENS in relation to MARTIN GILL.....
you wanted to put 'not a pretty face but a decent bloke' into the picture.....yes i can see that....but you FAILED upon 'make him talk for too long whilst not getting to the fucking point'....jesus....the ill cult then probably sacrificed him for it, for all i know....
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