...oh and the helplessness of it all...you just have to sit there and bide your time, until it is 'your turn' in the tombola, let us say...nothing you can do about it...'no escape' etc etc...see previous post....go figure:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tS0NotKJdWM

"bingo" and then?....see previous notes upon pile-on/pylon:

 

and then, that's your 'cloud of memory' left at the door: