...and so what was to happen today, then? well firstly i was to watch ALL GOOD THINGS as well as CAKE....to note that there was an obvious similarity...people jumping to their deaths from high places....apart from that, of course...the two films are completely different but my 'job' here, is not to review - is it? In relation to memory recall...well ALL GOOD THINGS had 'quite a bit' coded out in imagery...and oddly enough, it related to what had happened in shanghai 2003....remember sonia fisher exiting nir's student block in my light blue and white teeshirt and chino trousers? her long, thick, wavy blonde hair etc etc...whilst because of the radiation...my hair (which doesn't 'wave' or 'curl' as a rule) had thinned considerably - and i had also had it cut short, into a bob - which came to just below my ears...chinese cctv bore 'that one' out....

next up...the lead actor...very much reminded me of nir...he appeared to be projecting him, quite a bit of the time....so much so that i was to begin to wonder about who had really gone off that apartment block building...had it been nir's mother? watch ALL GOOD THINGS to understand why i might think that....

next up....i was to remember mcdonald allocating a CIA team (which included caitlyn and the ex-CIA man, whom i was to meet at the MI imperial hotel in jerusalem) certain operations....caitlyn was given the easiest by far...because she was the least experienced....the operation was a 'cinch' if you followed the instructions to the letter...mcdonald then exited the office...to leave the team to it....caitlyn then left...to enter nir hoffman's dad's company building....her mission? to steal certain electronically tagged documents...to then put them into an envelope...take them down to the post room (she had the ID, rank and 'uniform' to do so) to then take off the electronic tags...pop the envelope in the mail...and then leave the building - this was a way to get them out of the building without setting off the alarms.

anyway, I somehow 'knew' that she wouldn't do as she had been instructed...so i went through it with her, quite a few times...explaining why each step was necessary....and in particular NOT to speak to anybody in the postroom...to simply do as she had been told....ignore the lot of them...as staff of that rank, used to do...walk in there, take off the tags herself - put the documents back into the envelope...leave the envelope on the postroom desk, exit the postroom and then leave the building...caitlyn looked as if she were not listening...although she agreed to do 'everything' and to the letter....

...what happened next? well, after she had entered the building...i asked the CIA man (see above) if he had her 'controls' because i somehow 'knew' that she would mess up...in that postroom....he replied that he had mine but not hers....go figure...after realising that we had no control of Caitlyn or the wider situation at large....at that point i said "well, i'm out of here then" and left...

...and all i know so far...is that she had messed up in the postroom....she had decided to ask an employee to take those tags off for her...despite having been shown how to do it herself...and it really is very easy to do...go figure.

Why had mcdonald been acting suspiciously? had he wanted her to get found out....in that hoffman company? and if so...why? had he wanted to use her as a 'widget' in some way, once found out?...because he clearly still had her 'controls' even though we had not been allowed to have them...go figure. anyway, that CIA team then turned up in jerusalem...see previous notes upon 'batteries and chargers' etc etc...along with their bid to control the whole ill cult system.

OTHER NOTES:
having reflected upon shanghai 2003, yet again...i was to surmise...that i had not only been framed up by sonia fisher (regarding whoever had gone off of that building) but mcdonald 'in his way' had also framed up not only myself but also that CIA man, by not giving us caitlyn's controls...in order to stop her from doing 'anything silly' on the job, as it were....go figure.

i wondered why...i would never have framed up either sonia or mcdonald...i then realised that it had to be about drugs...see previous notes....do you see how it goes? intelligence operatives who will do anything for their next fix...and luckily i was never in that 'miserable' sort of situation....see previous notes. I was lucky because i didn't like heroin, for example...sure i'd take it for serious pain relief but i would never take it for 'recreation' because i don't like feeling as though i am sleepwalking through life...'living the dream' as it were.

i then thought about the bigger picture....for example - you run an intelligence agency...."the british monarchy" replies MI5 ONLINE...okay so you're the british monarchy...you're running MI6 on crack to ensure that they are completely obedient....they'll do anything to get their next fix...and regarding that theremin chip...your 'need' might also relate to 'motion sickness tablets'...go figure....well, what does drug addiction do to that intelligence service as a whole?....when they are all 'internally' backstabbing in order to 'stay alive' and get their next fix....do you see how it goes?..."the seeds of destruction"...absolutely...that sort of thing.

OTHER NOTES:
...back to today...i was to visit the library...and take a pic of a sculpture made of black keyboard characters as far as i could make out....a 'recycling theme' you understand...i was to borrow two more films-on-dvd...i then walked across the road to the town hall...to ask at reception (where all of the leaflets are) if they had one for the clacton airshow...apparently not - only a brochure for £5....i was puzzled....last year or maybe the year before, council employees had been handing out leaflets with a basic timetable upon them..."we lost a lot of money that way" instead of making it upon the brochures....i then asked about the british royal family...one of the princes had said that the clacton airshow was supposed to be free..a royal 'gift' to the people etc etc....i was then told that clacton council had to fund the whole thing, themselves...i.e. that the royals didn't pay a penny towards it....we all laughed...go figure.

...and so in what sense, had the royals meant....that it was 'free'....that the airshow was their gift to the people...when the local council has to find the money and pay upfront in order for anything to happen....."the brochure pays for the next show"....i wonder, now...

OTHER NOTES:
...what else? well i was to see art performance 'clacton's angel' on the station road, this morning...curiously enough...when he saw me...he said "oh shit" and then took that 'white ball' off his back...to then hold it out in his hand...i took a pic from behind...go figure...

OTHER NOTES:
...that poor dog on the high street...somebody has thrown it a toy....a bit of rope...didn't look interested in it...

OTHER NOTES:
anyway, the two new films on dvd are IMMORTAL BELOVED and THE INVISIBLE WOMAN...

OTHER NOTES:
this evening, i was to note that AARON services ltd still haven't sent that letter...okay so secondclass post is supposed to take 2/3 days...and this is the second day....since monday and that engineer calling off sick....but even so...i smell a rat...therefore i will send them the following email 'just to make sure':

Dear AARON services ltd,
 Jess left a message at 8.37am - 22/08 informing me that your engineer had called in sick and that she had therefore provisionally booked another 'annual gas inspection' appointment upon wednesday morning, the 7th of september 8am-12.
I was to ring Jess up later on, for her to tell me that she would put a letter in the post - confirming the above booking. Seeing as i have not received that letter as yet - could you possibly confirm the above by email?
Kind regards
Emily Gyde, Flat 2, belle court, ellis road, clacton on sea, CO15 1FH.