oh i remember now...the CID were to check that backroom out...they were to find out that semaphore codes had been used for 'something'..whilst one of them treated my wrist....you see that information officer had grabbed it so hard...he had almost sprained it...the library information officer involved in the MODified scottish rite....
let me backtrack a little here...an MI5 team had gone into that house...along with CF...who had 'banged a small gong' for a laugh...watch THE SEA to get it...this film is all about CF's worst nightmares....cusack doubles up as his mother....who was also to pay a visit to that scottish house...she was to turn up whilst that MI5 team were inside and CF had been as surprised as anybody else....is that what dazzlenation was laughing about 'surprisa' rather than 'suspiria'?...anyway, no surprises in relation to the 'human organs trade'....bobby clayton's masonic mob....and there's more....something around the romanov gang....
let me backtrack again...to begin at the beginning...i was to watch STONEHEARST ASYLUM first of all...to understand 'why' one of bobby's masons had been holding a 'wire' out and laughing at me...as i 'dared' to take his photo in front of his tent upon the seafront yesterday...not knowing that i had that film-on-dvd in my bag...and that i would therefore uncover the subliminal 'subconscious' threat....the threat of having my legs cut off....stolen by bobby's mob...sold on their ill cult 'human organs trade' market....
oh and STOMACH as in the BAG was also to come up (watch THE SEA to get it)...one of ingabot's nicknames for me is "bag"....STOWMARKET....STO-MARK-ATE....STOMACH-ATE....8
...and the ROMANOV influence began to show itself...."the hydra effect" replies MI5 ONLINE....hyde/ra...."dr jekyll and mr hyde"...."hyde the aristocrat"....a very old aristocratic family...where did i see that surname, the other day? oh i remember now...that red hardback version of THE DANGEROUS BOOK FOR BOYS...which has a chronology of 'kings and queens' plus their associated 'top aristocratic families'....
anyway, MI5 were pretty sure that the mangan family had also been involved 'behind the scenes'....along with the walsh element?....i connect the walsh family to the mangans....and so can one say that they are connected in some way to the romanov family? you see the establishing shot of STONEHEARST begins with a ZORK NEMESIS reference....remember how the 'heroine-to-be-saved'...had looked just like caroline hughes....and so what can one say but the game is all about saving somebody who looks like her...a romanov character..from the satanic alchemists...go figure as to why that might be a good idea...it's all bad, isn't it?
what else? well after watching STONEHEARST ASYLUM....i was to watch THE SEA...to realise that the 'yellow wall/paper' theme was continuing the 'madness' element....and so if there is one similiarity between the two films....it is another 'dance' around madness...who is mad - who is sane....along with memory retrieval....STONEHEARST is all about how ECT takes away memories...leaving a 'blank slate'...which is why the ill have got away with it and for so long...'the lunatics have taken over the asylum' etc etc....see previous notes..."those like petrol nell"...exactly....the lunatics....anybody with a stungun basically...because no doubt, you can buy them upon the internet along with all of those highly dangerous pharmaceutical drugs....becoming a mind control programmer/timelord has never been so easy, has it?
CF may well have picked up on the following....gill and i 'on the beach' after the ill cult had aborted me...and i had tried to drown myself in the sea....the two children who go underwater together - gill and i....except that we were both to surface, in the end...go figure...ingabot and weale - and their two damaged children....CF's relationship to his mother....along with a typical 'indie' line...along the lines of "it's okay to hate me - i hated you now and then"....so dull...but then it is also 'true to form' regarding indie movie cliches...how many times have i watched indie movies where an aging married couple spout almost exactly the same thing...does every aging couple spout that line to each other, in real life - i wondered....why that line of all lines?
.... couldn't the scriptwriters think up something 'different for a change?....answer 'no' because it's an indie movie...which usually consist of a subliminal 'aean to lucifier'....and so the machine churns out the same old lines for each and every 'cog' upon its network etc etc even though indie movies are supposed to be all about 'originality'....how funny...that polish director had hit the nail upon the head 'in interview'...whilst talking about how hollywood can sometimes be less restrictive than an 'indie' label, in terms of the 'model' etc etc....what was the name of his film again...the one with the 'ghost' in a parisian apartment....i watch too many films...that is the problem...one after another...
anyway, film 'models' or rather....formulae and the formulaic...interest me...because sometimes 'in real life'....you find somebody acting like they are 'in' an indie movie....and it is therefore up to you to cut the crap and refuse to listen to those 'rites of passage' cliches e.g. "it's okay for you to hate me..i hated you now and then" etc etc...to a reply along the lines of "no, it is not okay - and do you know what?...with that line you are making me feel like i am in a bad movie - where's the camera then? why don't you think up something original to say for a change? how about kickstarting your brain?" etc etc.......and by doing so, you then become the 'director'....important to do because an ill cult way of 'mobbing' is to surround the 'target' within a 'drama' of their own concoction...with each member of that ill cult team playing a role...designed to entrap their victim...to then control how that person will act/react...basically it is a more sophisticated model than 'sheepdog' herding....or rather....if one were to use that model...you have quite a few sheepdogs surrounding one sheep....the only one who is 'not in the know'...a peg that is being forced into a certain 'hole' let us say...forced to run in a certain direction etc etc...
...and yes i can understand how and why people resort to the formulaic...if you try to talk about your real feelings and you are not well-versed in doing so...well, that can open you up to ridicule/taunts/laughter...which can then leave you even more 'clammed up' than before...with feelings of embarrassment, shame, humiliation, misplaced 'guilt' etc etc...but the importance is to try...because every human being is an 'original'....unique...and we should not be reduced to formulaic 'luciferian' cliches - borrowed from the movies...particularly bad movies....which THE SEA wasn't, i might add...just that one line.......and yes (in relation to ill cult critics - nota bene those like quasi-collie) i use 'formulaic stock phrases' as a form of shorthand - see previous notes, in order to hammer out this diary-of-a-recovering-mind-control-slave, upon a daily basis...but not all of the time...go figure.
anyway, what is 'okay' about hating somebody and them hating you? there is nothing 'okay' about it, at all...it is an unresolved situation...conflict...issue...go figure. Maybe something like "it's not okay but i am beginning to understand how and why it might have happened and so..." etc etc...i would only say "it's okay..." if i were talking to a complete and utter psychopath, in order to calm them down...or somebody whom i knew would brook no other response...in other words a 'mental robot'....which is why i regard the generic indie model as 'so much wank' now and then...it really gets my goat...lots of supa-8 style nostalgic technicolour with shots of the setting sun, thrown in like 'ad breaks' all over the place (which is what i had meant by 'paean to lucifer' i.e. the RA cult at work)...etc etc....in fact, the worst RA cult cliche is that 'old mkultra trick' of holding a coin up to blot out the sun...'total eclipse'....seen it in so many indie movies....
it wasn't 'okay' that your mother hated you, as a child - CF...and it wasn't 'okay' that my mother hated me, as a child and it was MKULTRA that was to blame...for all of it...
...we found 'solace' with each other as children...whilst quarantined in your bedroom with whatever 'pox' was going round, at the time...told each other stories, went on adventures, down to the 'sweetshop' and back...cuddled each other to sleep etc etc...and that is one of the reasons - apart from the obvious as to why we were to remain 'close' over those years, at the CIA LAB...well 'sort of'....'whatever'...ha ha ha.
....and having got the above off of my chest...back to that scottish house....
ling and her scottish friend were to turn up (along with a few of others - those that i haven't invented 'nicknames' for) along with CF...we were to enter the house...CF banged the gong...that information officer was already inside with one or two other men...there was a computer in the back...we were ushered into a relatively small 'frontroom'...and we then sat down in a circle...
ling, her scottish friend and i, were all in child alters...information officer was to show us a 'harp'...."it's all about HAARP"....and the MODified scottish rite....the scottish friend was to offer to help him...he replied that she could be useful...is that why she was then given ling's MODified scottish rite commands-upon-the-system?...the information officer left for a while...
at some point...CF got up and walked into the corridor to encounter his mother - who had just come in the frontdoor...a 'surprise' encounter "what are you doing here?!?" rather than a 'suspira' one, dazzlenation...his mother didn't have time to explain...she had simply come to have a look at the computer and computer room...and having done so...having got an overview of what had been going on there...she was to leave, almost immediately afterwards...go figure.
anyway, information officer then came back into that frontroom with some drugged fudge "for the children"...i pretended to eat a piece...whilst holding it in my cheek....information officer found out...grabbed my wrist and pulled me up off of the floor...is that when the CID pounced? i cannot remember...the next thing that i can remember, is being attended to by a member of the CID outside....for my wrist injury.
what else? 'in pictures'...you see yesterday i was to stop by that 'mainly fudge' stall....to wonder why somebody had left a largish, white plastic bag on top of the display...was it full of fudge packets? did anybody check it out, after i had taken a couple of photos?....you see i had been trying to pull up 'drugged fudge' as part of the clump....and it is possible that...go figure...who was supposed to pick up that plastic bag, then - eh? oh and i 'know' that the 'shoelaces' were important too - as well as the fudge...ling's MI5 boss had known 'something' about them...but i have no further information so far....all i can remember is somebody had given her 'shoelaces' to play with, in that frontroom...or was it coloured wires? her 'special' function in a certain child alter - sorting out the coloured wires?...go figure.
oh i see....the first stall that i was to encounter...had TWO BAGS upon it's display...one white plastic one and another see-through plastic one, full of fudge...go figure....
...i didn't bother to take a close look at the second stall...i was intrigued by the ladder in front of it, though....
...so they call those 'shoelaces'...CABLES nowadays?...sorting out the cables for that information oficer, eh?....the one in charge of that new MODified scottish rite...."bobby's mob".
...'in pictures'....let me see...i'll pull up the whole clump again...that AA man who had shouted at me...asked me if i wanted 'insurance'....whilst playing with that wire and that white 'pipe' behind him....at first i was to think that he was purely harmless and it was all a sort of pathetic 'penis joke'...phallic imagery etc etc...anyway, he was doing it for my benefit...to grab my attention....i then scanned for more information...realised what the CIA ONLINE had been going on about....to then reply with a laugh that i had all of the insurance that i needed....and then with a smile upon my face...i turned around and asked him to "smile" for the camera......the joke is now on you, mate...another 'mental robot'....another one of bobby's masonic mob.
what else? MORRISON's 'flower girl'...see previous notes upon how the whole clump was to come up and then 'unravel' yesterday in relation to that scottish location upon yahoonews and then...that location google maps etc etc...go figure:
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