....and what makes me sad, today?....the national jackpot....and those who had contributed to it by buying X amount of tickets (an indicator of how impoverished the UK, has become)...because the majority of them will be horribly poor....i know because i used to play it......1998.....whilst living at rodway's house, 45 francis road, acocks green...."and (whilst) being skinned alive" replies BI ONLINE...well, not quite, if one takes that literally - 'fleeced' is a better word....by those from BI intelligence agencies along with the masons...fleeced - of the bare minimum i.e. most of my weekly 'UK minimum wage' from a certain recruitment agency in central, b'ham....fleeced of the 'bare minimum' that i had earned, whilst working at a full-time job - in the central b'ham registry office........anyway, all of my 'hopes and dreams' were on that one-ticket-that-i-could-afford-for-the-week...and then one of rodway's friends decided to 'muscle in on the act' ...the act of 'earning it by being evil'...."tomlinson's cult" replies MI5 ONLINE....of satanic extortion and exploitation....see previous notes upon the history of UK mind control slavery....anyway, winnie's mob and their british army connections - stepped in....and as far as i know...that friend of rodway's might still be at the bottom of a b'ham canal...along with her 'special-in-the-head' daughter...unless they 're-surface' at some point in time....oh and as far as i know 'dartington-pen-dalton' ended up the very same way, having taken up an 'academic post' in b'ham...and so what is the overview on it all?...hmmm....something around -watching the british royal mafia competition in corporation with 'slices of modern history' for the criminal psychologist?....go figure.

....hmmm....the national jackpot news, today - might make me sad....but the rowling/random house 'LUMOS' charity mob number....makes me even sadder....see previous notes as to 'why' that might be i.e. the paedophile/cannibal templar cult-at-work....and no, i am not about to 'cut my wrists' - BI ONLINE...as it goes, eh?....you get sad, so get sadder...reach the nadir and then go back up again etc etc...take life as it comes...as the pendulum swings....watch out for the pitfalls....whilst on the swings and the roundabouts (a losing/winning metaphor) as grandma clayton used to say...sadness/happiness are a natural part of life....and so is depression...you don't need to take pills for it...you just need to live through it - unless it is really sending you 'off of your rocker' as they say....and i've lived through alot, haven't i, dear reader?...i should know....see previous notes upon the makeshift CIA lab in shanghai 2003 and 'ave a lof'...combined with 'ave a shot of laughing gas' etc etc...hmmm...let me see....perhaps, too much 'laughing gas' canister spraying....applied by obama et al - over the years?...see previous notes upon SAS 'scottie' who had wisely surmised etc etc and in particular to...."in relation to sonia and mark" replies MI5 ONLINE...at least it enables you to survive - the most terrible of memories....i.e. when viewing your past - with hindsight and in perspective....your overview, of the past...tends to be through a haze of laughing gas 'squirts-from-a-can'...because it is all so 'mad' and that is why nobody 'in their right mind' ever dares to talk about it....ergo i must not be in my 'right mind' etc etc....and of course, 'understanding another'...'walking in their shoes' is probably very difficult indeed, if one has not been 'through' the whole horrorshow - if one has not experienced it, firsthand...and that is why, often as not - i do not skimp upon outlining 'the worst' that had happened as well as pointing out 'everything else' - because however 'mad' it might seem, in relation to 'templar castle horrorshows' for example - people might not 'identify' but they will surely realise that something 'terrible' has been going on and behind their backs....even if they do not have firsthand experience, of it....go figure.