....and so what was this morning, all about?

firstly it was about gill...telling me that i had to remember about that MOD programming session upon the moors - because he wouldn't do, later on i.e. he knew that he would be stungunned and memory-dumped in the near future "you'd better remember or...for your own good because......

.and yes, i can remember now...sally tallant had been 'outing' what CF had told her...what had happened to him...'in tears'...distraught...apparently he had had his face held down in the mud.....as MOD personnel buggered him...and why had they done that? "looks like you're wearing lipstick" to his exasperated reply that he had just been in a performance...would that have been gill's production of GREASE, CF? the one where he had got you to play 'sandy' in a transgender etc etc.....anyway, it is no laughing matter...because this is what had happened upon the moors...and to quite a few male dartington students...as well as other young men, that they didn't know - who were also 'held prisoner' at the time...anyway, the MOD personnel were to tell them all, that they had a choice...they either had to join the army or be 'gay'...now that sort of decision probably wouldn't have bothered somebody like andy bell....but it was to bother quite a few of those young men held captive upon the moors....most of whom had never even thought about 'signing up'...never occurred to them...but then as 'arts' students...it wouldn't have done - would it?

okay paul dibbens was an oddity...he had been in the british army, before going to dartington...and he had worked closely with the CIA, in germany...

...oh and would that decision have bothered daldry, i wondered....he had opted for a 'gay lifestyle' for most of his younger life....and yet had joined the RAF before going to university...'mr-join-as-many-clubs-as-you-can'...i.e. every single political party available during fresher's week etc etc.......an engima, i decided....'le porc etrange' etc etc....oh and yes it is daldry's day in the flat today and so....'cruel humour' is obviously not advisable...in relation to the 'mr 6 hats/FO man'....i mean to say....daldry was to take offence and threaten legal action after PRIVATE EYE had once described him as being 'flamboyant'...go figure...

i then wondered about motives....daldry joining the army whilst being 'gay' to all intents and purposes....had he figured that it was all 'one big challenge'...were things more complicated than they seem?....i then decided 'no'....he just wanted to fly helicopters, that's all....and i do not think that there is any club in the world, that could keep daldry out...once he had decided to join...

two choices...either 'join the army' or 'be a gay civilian'...go figure, as to what 'that one' was all about....

anyway, if you watch VALHALLA...you will understand just how brutal and terrible...that MOD 'session-on-the-moors' had been...."they just beat him to death...nobody did...anything..."  CF had sobbed to tallant....

earlier on, tallant had shown me her manuscript...i skimmed through it and then, in order to 'cut the crap' (not having any idea of why she had written it etc etc) decided to ask the obvious question - to see what that would bring up...see previous notes and post...

she then tried to guilt-trip me about not caring about CF enough....i am assuming that she didn't have all of the information upon 'that one'...see previous notes......richard harris and my father had made me agree to be his 'nanny' and 'blood donor' - and from an early age...or 'bloodbag' as daldry was to state, firmly...no illusions there...just a 'bloodbag'...

the fact that CF had then decided to target me, at dartington (against gill's advice)...upon the instruction of his 'irish nazi party' tutors (the writing tutor and his partner jane fitzgerald)...the instruction had been to pick a young woman, make her fall in love with you...to then use and abuse her as a zygote slave, in order to 'make money'...well do you see how it goes? 'no relationship' possible....but on the other hand...i still had to make sure that he was 'in the land of the living' etc etc...which i used to do, to the best of my ability...and he survived...that is all i can say, about 'that one'.

roll on the years....to 1994...sonia fisher and mark vizard....sonia loved mark more than anybody in the whole world...they had been 'twinned'...and yet, he could do 'that' to her (run her as a prostitute and then abort her to 'make money' - so that the ill could 'eat' - see previous notes).....and i wonder now - how many men didn't get away, 'that lightly'....depends upon how clever the woman was, i suppose...."bodies buried under patios" replies MI5 ONLINE...really? wouldn't surprise me, when i look back upon the whole thing, now...

you see...this morning i was sent back footage of sally tallant meeting up with scarlett's 'the afterlife' crew 'so many years ago now'....including debbie mcdonough....let me explain 'this one', as follows...debbie had joined the 'afterlife' after overhearing what her husband was up to, with a 'friend' of his...her husband was to deny it, at first...but after he had realised that she really didn't believe him...he then tried to coax her into 'it'....as in "we need the money...think what i could buy with the money..."...and i suppose that it was, at that point...that debbie had figured that the 'marriage' was over (and that joining the 'afterlife' - was then to become an 'option')...at the time, she was to reply "who have i married?"...to then break into violent sobs....her husband did little to console her...he watched her cry and then left her alone....his parting shot, had been "you'll come to your senses, eventually..." go figure...

OTHER NOTES:
daldry's day in the flat....what else as to crop up?

well, this morning...i decided to take back that novel 'EPILOGUE' to the library...having noted the 'BIG FOOT' reference along with SWISS GERMANS in relation to a certain US school....in wisconsin....

...i was to meet donna by the bins room...and she was to show me a couple of 'first edition' english notes....she allowed me to take photos....

i then went on to the library...to find 4 dvds waiting for me in 'reservations' - located upon the first floor, nowadays....
the information officer was 'none too happy' about one dvd cover...after i had showed him that the cover, had the following - upon the front:

EXPRESS ZONE
PLEASE ASK A MEMBER OF STAFF TO
ISSUE THIS ITEM FOR YOU
NO DISC INSIDE

"different libraries have different systems" he replied...having just taken the elastic band and 'reservation - piece of paper' with-my-name-upon-it...off of that dvd cover....to then open it...

"it has a disc inside, doesn't it?" he asked me (as if i were a fool for not having checked)...a rhetorical question...and i laughed, in response....you see - he hadn't wanted that disc near to the main desk...it had to  be checked out at the tills...that is all i am saying upon 'that number'....

oh and somebody has just changed this text to an MOD one (remember that 'SAS castle' "we have noted that sometimes....we've checked - some people say it is - some people say it isn't")....calibri 11....as i was typing the paragraph above....somebody was to gain access to this laptop by remote and change the font on wordpad to calibri 11...go figure.

naturally i shall change it back...including the whole document....

...let me make this a bit clearer....rather than 'muddier'...or talmuddier'...a calibri text number 11 is all about satanism...jooish style satanism.....

CF might remember being shown a text...calibri 11...after his face had been pulled out of the mud....there again, he might not...go figure....because I can remember now...we had scanned the whole thing...to find out what had happened...

"GO SLOW....FOCUS..." the man had intoned....he then did so, helplessly....he concentrated...to see what they were telling him to focus upon...with all of his might....

what else? well, as certain mkultra slaves have said, in interview...you don't know how you 'get there - in the end' but somehow, you 'pull it out of a hat' .....in short, he had focussed, in order to memorise every microscopic detail....to then read back what was on that mobile (apple inc. again)....

....what else? well daldry's crew had disagreed with me...apparently, APPLE INC. hadn't sold anything...to the MOD (circa the late 80s)...but they had, they had...although you won't find any records of 'that one' nowadays....go figure.

....back to CF on the moors....that was all those APPLE INC. operatives had wanted to know..."we'll use it later on"...go figure...calibri 11...."the ad boys at work - dressed as military" replies BI ONLINE....well, it had got to be something like that. hadn't it?

OTHER NOTES:

....you want to pick up on 'ad boys' such as 'greg smith'?....well, you used to  'text, line, font'....in relation to the 'original' easiest way to hack anybody's computer...

.....but nowadays it is  so much more - in terms of just about anything and not just.....images/picture files - in relation to the HOLLIDAY mob (who are adept at hacking, in relation to picture/video files) - all i can say is this.... just remove all files (recently used) that you want to keep, onto a memory device and then delete them upon your computer/laptop and keep going...go figure.
computer safety in relation to 'all of the above'? never leave documents/image/video files upon your computer after you have used them - take them off and put them upon a 'memory stick'....

run a full scan, every week....and most importantly, do a 'defragment disk' and  'disk cleanup' every week.

hmmm...mr icke had once said...either in one of his books or in an email...I forget which, now...that he suspected that the ill were most probably working through advertising now...a large multi-media company...rather than any other 'front'...

mark r was to say that they used to catch him again and again 'that way'...subliminal shit....triggers etc etc...go figure...