....and what else, dazzlenation?...well, oscar had mentioned katherine whitehorn's book 'cooking in a bedsitter' and so i decided to skim through her wiki entry, this evening....to find the most marvellous quote...i understand it, so well...within my own personal context....even though, of course - i had had to adapt her quote, to my own life....in relation to a general feeling of bereavement....along the lines of 'almost all of my friends and anybody that i ever loved or who loved me - is now dead' etc etc....and so one finds solace in the picture galleries of the mind....along with the photo albums....and yet, because it was not somebody specific e.g. my husband of so many years....and i am not as old as she was, at the time of etc etc....the feeling of being an 'unwilling refugee' is perhaps not as poignant, let us say...."a temporary situation" replies BI online....and well, one looks at the 'new world' let us say...every time somebody close dies and one takes a deep breath.......i can remember how terrible it was to learn of grandma clayton's death etc etc....and as ed had once said, whilst on the phone at the time "she's joined the universe" as we both looked out of our respective windows....at the same glorious red sunset over prague and london, one spring evening - 1996...only an hour's time difference, you understand - between the two cities...oh and i can also remember sylvia laughing about her father's response to grandma clayton's death....apparently he had been 'railing' at the skies, outside of hill house combs...telling his wife "i would have brought the sun, the moon, the stars, down for you!....how dare you leave me?" etc etc...bereavement does funny things to the mind, sometimes - doesn't it?...because it brings out....how does one put it...."honesty"....and yes, i can understand 'why' he had done it..."he thought she was still around and laughing at him"....quite possibly, she was....go figure:

Katharine Whitehorn - Wikipedia