....and what's new this monday evening?....well, that whole daldry saga was to come up again....remember what had happened upon that school children's cruise up the norwegian fjords, dazzlenation?....along with what then happened at that greenwich naval college - regarding the captain's log?....oh and i have a bit more to add upon 'that one'...oscar was to initially say that he would contact 'proctor' in order to etc etc....to then decide quickly that it might be a bad idea....he then contacted giles 'corie' instead....who had a contact - in there....who would locate the file and etc etc....and once daldry had got it....'buzz off'....no further information....go figure.

....and there's more....regarding that cruise....as i can now remember....turns out that lisa had been the real 'fly-in-the-ointment' as far as i was concerned....lisa 'n' colin....remember the WHE society?....because sonia fisher was to scream at me, in a rage....hotelu asystencki....that i had been responsible for 'something' relating to her 'inhaler'...."you KNOW i use one!..." etc etc....mark vizard then calmed her down and investigated it all...to then find out that not only was sonia wrong about the whole matter....but that she was unwilling to believe the truth of what had happened....bear with me, because this all ties up - dazzlenation....sonia appeared to be in a sort of drug-induced rage....a bit 'cold-turkey'....screaming with rage....unable to see reason.....and now, i can finally remember what it was all about....roll back the years, to that cruise....there was a langley seniors first year girl called carole....with an 'e' as far as i can remember...she had said "with an 'e'"....and that her second name had 'wick' in it....i can remember sitting on my bunk in the dormitory with those langley senior girls.....metzger and myself, from the second year....rimington's stepdaughter 'nicola parry' and 'sally smart'....along with 'carole'....all three, from the first year.....i didn't know any of them....'carole' was the most unfamiliar because smart had been in RH's class at school and i could vaguely remember RH talking about how she would also be on the trip....and rimington's daughter had caused such a scene upon the coach before it set off for tilbury docks....that i had learned her name, immediately - from metzger....anyway, i can remember sitting there and thinking 'how am i going to remember her name'....it was important, you understand....i must have been tipped off, about her....and all i can remember now is that i was to reply that i knew a family called the fishwicks....and the stredwicks....but i had never etc etc....in short, her surname contained 'wick'....either as a suffix or a prefix.....anyway, apparently carole's father was a doctor....carole was very pushy, bossy....metzger was a natural leader, let us say....had her own gang in our school class '2H'....but she immediately began to play second-fiddle to carole....how odd....and what else?....i was told by a crew member that they liked to keep schools together, regarding the curriculum/timetable....however, sometimes it wasn't possible - in short, i was told to join the catholic girls' school, in that dorm - the one that the langley girls had been allocated...no room with the langley seniors girls and boys, in their classes, upon the timetable....and so from that moment on - i hardly ever saw them - apart from back in the dorm, before lights-out...not even for meals........anyway, i can remember carole telling nicola...."i'll do it - i'm more attractive than you" - one evening, back in the dorm...almost laughable if you had seen the two girls, at that age....nicola was far more attractive....and elicited quite a bit of jealousy, as far as i could see....she had been bullied at school - hence that scene upon the coach, before etc etc....anyway, what was it that carole had decided to do...well, there was a 'party' on that evening...for the younger children.....a 'cocktail' party....non-alcoholic fruit punches....carole dressed up in a sort of hawaiian colourful shirt, put a flower in her hair, rigorously brushed her hair....thick, light brown, wavy hair (blue eyes, freckled skin - 'horsey' sort of face)...and then applied makeup to her face....she looked like a clown....very unattractive....lol....thick light blue powder upon her lids....blusher and lipstick....a real 'clown'....she then ordered us all to follow her to the party event....at the party, daldry and his mate, from the first year - had already arrived...now, daldry had been 17 years old, at the time....later on, his teacher was to say that he shouldn't have really been allowed onto the cruise, because he was too old (16 was the age limit) but he had begged to be on it....because his best friend had been in the first year....and he was going.....daldry at 17 years old...his best friend had been an 11 year old....and so again, it is all laughable, really...every time his best  friend wanted to whisper something to him....he had to bend down...nearly twice his best friend's height....and it was his best friend who was the 'boss'...who used to tell daldry what to do.....a bit of a 'gentle giant' or so it seemed, at the time....remember, i was only 12 years old, myself and not so tall, i was to shoot up - a year later on....anyway, how wrong i was - regarding daldry....because of what was to happen next.....anyway, carole attempted to seduce him, at that party...i kid you not....she was unsuccessful....and furious....raging, about it.....later on - it turned out that daldry's preference had been the youngest girl, in that catholic girls' school team.....the one that the rest of them used to look after...they used to call her 'baby'....anyway, i was to leave the party, in disgust because at the time....i had no idea what those langley girls were up to but i wanted no part in it...it just seemed so 'mental'....and in retrospect, dazzlenation....i can now see that daldry was being set up, in some way....was rimington involved?....nicola parry had  been roped into helping carole etc etc....however, not attending their classes/courses etc etc....i had no idea what they were up to or planning before or after that 'cocktail' party....and i had no desire to - either....anyway, the 'horrorshow' began for myself, after carole had stolen my clothes and hidden them...hoping to set up a division between myself and the catholic girls in that dorm...."maybe it was them" she tittered etc etc...and so i told them that carole had said that she thought that they might have etc etc...sally smart then made carole own up to it all and return my clothes....oh and then carole tried to drug my tea, in the canteen.....let me backtrack - she came over one morning....normally, i never shared meals with them.....i was alone, having a late breakfast....she and the others, expressed surprise to see me because normally we never crossed paths on board ship....she told me bossily "you'll want sugar in your tea!" and opened a packet of 'something'....i pushed her hand away...the white powder spilled everywhere....i took my tray and went to another table.....to then watch what happened next...."i've failed!" carole told the rest of them.....she then began to cry...isn't that odd?....and there's more....after the whole 'baby' crying and screaming - about having been raped....those terrible nightmares in the dorm....and the langley seniors teacher 'clapperton' intervening...to bring the captain into it all.....the catholic girls decided to blame me...and in order to scare me....leapt upon me, one night and put a pillow over my head....'bullygirl' was the ringleader...and the oldest at about 14/15 years of age, as far as i can remember...a big girl, tall and muscular for her age...."just scare her" she had said....and what else?....well, as vizard was to find out...and this is where it gets really 'strange'....carole had not only been after daldry and myself....she had also been after another girl, in the catholic school team....a girl who had an inhaler....an inhaler that sonia used to use, now and then...isn't it odd that sonia didn't have one of her own?....anyway, carole was to tamper with it, in some way....the crew were to find out, later on...after the girl had been found 'blue' in her bed, one morning....that it had been something in the inhaler.....sonia was led to believe that i had had something to do with it....daldry and bullygirl investigated....we were all to have a chat about the whole thing, outside of the captain's cabin - before going in to be interviewed....daldry, bullygirl, 'baby' and myself....the upshot of it was....that daldry was to say "it's the joos" - whilst talking about the langley seniors team - as led by carole....odd that, again...because metzger had been part of caroline stokes' nazi children gang....anyway, i agreed to say that i had lied about 'baby'....and they were also to lie about it....in short, we all went in and said that we had made it all up for a 'dare' to see how far it would go....the crew had to accept our statements....although the captain then said that he would have to put it into his log...hence 'daldry's operation' down at greenwich naval college...in order to make that 'log' disappear.....and there's more, dazzlenation.....daldry and bullygirl then decided that carole had to be disposed of....she had tried to get me murdered....and then murdered one of their gang.....whilst trying to entrap daldry.....nobody else was to know....bullygirl then told me that sonia fisher would be a problem later on..."she doesn't know - watch out for her"...daldry and bullygirl then contacted carole...sent a message to her, to meet them upon a certain deck....because they were apparently so sick of me....that they wanted her help in etc etc....carole turned up, they threw her overboard.....and the rest is history, i suppose...except that once the crew, had realised that she was missing...the ship had to turn back....lol....honestly it is funny in retrospect.....carole was such a wannabe 'wicked witch' in a way.....and her father had been a doctor...no further information, so far....anyway, after having searched fruitlessly for carole....and contacted the last norwegian port-of-call, just in case she had turned up there...the ship headed back to tilbury docks.....and this is where it gets 'weird' again.....clapperton didn't seem to realise that carole had been missing for such a long period of time....i can remember sitting on the coach, with the rest of them....whilst clapperton talked about contacting the police....and another search of the ship, was conducted.....anyway, eventually the coach made it back to langley seniors....the parents were on the drive....they greeted their children....helped them get their luggage out of the back....my parents were not there....but carole's parents were....daldry had asked me to carefully note them.....and i did so....nothing out of the ordinary...just middle-class parents, in appearance....it was their behaviour that was so odd...as if they had been expecting it....when clapperton told them that their child had disappeared...they just stood, there...upon the grass.....without talking to each other....watching as the other parents helped their children to etc etc.....carole's parents were very 'cold'....almost disinterested...not in 'shock'....no emotion at all....the only thing that her father was to say to clapperton....was to ask if the police had been notified and if the children had all been interviewed....clapperton was to tell them that this was the case....isn't it all so odd, dazzlenation?....oh and for my own part...i had to walk home, hauling my large green 'army bag' behind me....took me some time...i had to keep stopping to rest....i was still only 'small'....12 years old....and having finally made it back home...sylvia hardly appeared to even recognise me....it was as if she hadn't been expecting me to come back, at all....i walked in....and yes, it had been 3 weeks but even so...."oh, it's you" she eventually said, eyeing me coldly.....i ignored her....i was tired and simply relieved that the whole ordeal had finished.....i made a sandwich and a cup of tea and was about to head up to my bedroom....when sylvia asked me if i had enjoyed my 'holiday' but in such a nasty way...that i was to mutter in reply that it had been 'all right'....she immediately got angry....told me that they had spent a hundred pounds upon me....what an ungrateful good-for-nothing....but at least she hadn't had to put up with me for 3 weeks etc etc....i didn't reply....just headed up stairs....i needed a sleep....just keep your head down and keep going, i thought....the last thing i needed at that point in time, was a row with...my 'stepmother' as it turned out - dazzlenation...."slave-driver" replies BI online....that, too.....oh and that isn't where the story ends, dazzlenation....remember the jooish 'miss price' - english teacher at langley seniors....well, later on - she was to ask me what had happened on that trip...had 'baby' cried at night because of the nightmares etc etc....i could hardly remember a thing...and so i just replied "yes...." hesitantly...she then laughed "that's all i need to know".....and the upshot of 'that one' was a meeting upon the drive, after school with daldry and somebody who appeared to be 'military'....they asked me why i had said 'yes'....i replied that i couldn't remember etc etc.......the man (and yes, he could have been daldry's headmaster for all i know) then took out a form...."this is what you had said" he told me...i quickly read it...."sign it"....i did so....not having really bothered to read it all...only skimmed through....and that was 'that'...no more inquiries into the whole horrorshow.....apart from....let me see...a couple of years, later on...suzanne barton was to dig the whole thing up again....and in relation to clapperton's O level history class...."why does she hate you so much?" etc etc....i told her that it was about that norwegian cruise holiday....she then began to investigate....she didn't tell me anything, about what she had found out...apart from to tell me, after history class - one day.....to ask clapperton if she could remember 'carole'....i did so....clapperton looked confused...as if she didn't know what i was talking about...no memories of 'carole'....and so in conclusion, dazzlenation...who had carole's parents been....what had they been up to.....what did they know....why had daldry been so interested in them - told me to note them etc etc....and yes, a crew member had been involved....why had they told me to remember their faces....get a good look at them etc etc....so many questions....so few answers....anyway, your latest sequence - dazzlenation...that actress....if carole had grown up...and yes, i am assuming that she had drowned.....she might have looked a bit like that....except that her hair was thicker and wavy....long curls...perhaps it had been permed....remember helen browne-when-young?....go figure:

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