in fact, if I analyse that encounter with ROZ in 1997...the ill cult were TAKING AWAY her motivation to kick heroin for good and never go back...it was a 'reverse psychology' move...she had told me herself that she had been off it for about 3 years...and yet, this 'commune' had told her that she would never be fully healed until...let me see...19 years later...so she had another 16 years to go...and it all sounded like 'nonsense' to me...if you can do it for 3 years and you have such a strong motivation to keep off a drug...you are home and dry, I would have thought...

The ill would have wanted to take away that motivation and in the cruellest possible way...BLAMING her, for her childless situation and emotional unhappiness...which would have sent her back onto the heroin...

...and of course, I then met her again in NY, year after year...at the CIA LAB...where she was 'back on the heroin chain gang' again...