One thing I haven't written about yet and that was RIMINGTON's 'job' apparently...to make my life hell - at as many CHRISTMASES as possible...by putting me into a teenage alter and doing what I shall term:

LAST CHRISTMAS, I GAVE YOU MY HEART - THE VERY NEXT DAY, YOU GAVE IT AWAY, THIS YEAR I'LL GIVE IT TO SOMEONE SPECIAL...'WHAM'...

I really really hate that song and the accompanying video...because the above is basically what happened...so many times...in relation to GILLY BOY at an Xmas party getting off with somebody else and me then biding my time until the NEW YEAR'S EVE party and then kissing somebody else at midnight...GILLY BOY would then tend to try and kill whoever it was...with variations...this happened so many times...having to relive the horror of teenage years, again and again...

I can remember being in my late twenties...with ROZ, MCDONALD, SC and GILL...all sharing a log cabin at some skiing resort...I had managed to stow away some presents for MARTIN(E)...his youngest child alter, who had confided in me, how dreadful it was to be a JOO at XMAS...I always hated XMAS too but for different reasons...anyway, i put the bag on the bottom of the bed during the night...he opened them in the morning and cheered up immensely...in the evening we had to attend an ill cult party of slaves...whereupon I stayed in the cabin because I knew how GILL was if another man even looked at me and I didn't want to spoil his XMAS...I got quite miserable, alone that evening...he then came back and told me that I was depressing and that he was bored of me...so I did the 'usual'...to get him back.

I waited until the NEW YEAR'S EVE PARTY which PRINCE WILLIAM was attending (he must have been about 20 or so and was whisked off the next day)...and I kissed him instead...GILL went coldly furious but didn't dare to attack...

The above was part of a whole stack of horrible XMAS memories dating back to 17 years old...that was the 'first round'...and then the repetition over the years...not every year but enough to make me hate XMAS...having to live 'teenage angst' again and again...

...and of course THE HEBREW HAMMER brought it all up again...