http://lookintomyowl.com/ulrich-lamsfuss-birdie.html

NIKOLAS also showed me this image and said 'that's you' - it obviously wasn't and I had no idea why the artist had entitled it BIRDIE. They wouldn't tell me but they all appeared to know.

So symbolically - was that fish supposed to represent you, TODDY?

...perhaps the GILLS/FISH/FISHMAN...who knows?