OTHER NOTES:

....and what came up yesterday? well i was to watch SECRET GARDENS presented by alan titmarsh...to remember that all of the gardens had been used as programming locations...some were worse than others...early on - i can remember the RUSKIN garden....and 'rusk-in baby alters'...col the sol was to take a few of us round...to trigger me into adult alter by referring to wild garlic along the path...so that i would remember the following...firstly that ghostly short story by pritchard or was it algernon blackwood?...something around the 'bog plants' and the 'wen spirit of nature' was really scaring col the sol, about that garden...or was it the next cottage garden, on the dvd? it is shown early on, at any rate....the first three gardens appeared to be the worst...norwegian programmers along with the holliday family - had posed as various 'green plants' in them...

oh and the 'algae'...i get what that was all about now...the AL-GAE/ALL-GAY...and you wonder why i was to join tomlinson and norman's outfit? and yes you can talk about 'gender confusion' etc etc in relation to child alters....but anyway, for some reason, i had been put onto the 'all gay' list...."by mistake" replies MI5 ONLINE....yet another one to add to my increasingly absurd list of categories....the black list...the white arab list...the hermaphrodite list etc etc...and now i find that i was on the 'all gay' one, too. anyway, norman's attitude to 'col the sol' as another ALGAE member....is understandable now...in relation to "i'm trying to help you, help yourself" in relation to being 'all gay'...and why 'col the sol' immediately made a run for it...as mark r and gill were to point out - anybody who really knew 'col the sol' well...knew that if anybody reminded him of miss jones, the headmistress of all saints primary...holding her ruler up in her office...or her bottle of bell's in blackheath/greenwich park...saying something along the lines of "this is for your own good - this will hurt you more than it does me..." - well you wouldn't see 'col the sol' for dust...and you wouldn't find him again either - until he wanted you to do so.

...the first three gardens appeared to be the worst...until i had got to the last garden on that dvd....and yes, that has got to rate as the 'worst of the lot' in terms of the clump that i was to dig up...

firstly - as far as i can remember...whilst at dartington college....various members of H house had used that a video about gardens - in order to 'hide'...see previous notes upon lou knowing all about 'nature/landscapes' and hiding in pictures....well caroline was to say "why don't we hide in a garden upon that video?" or something along those lines...i don't remember titmarsh presenting the video...but anyway, the same gardens had been explored....

....and the garden we had chosen to hide in 'as a visualisation' you understand...was the garden behind that somerset fire-station...

ian rickson was to 'find us all out'...and using his headphones...he was to attempt to project 'myself' in an attempt to 'get' col the sol within that garden behind somerset fire-station (and yes rickson appears to be an obsessive 'stalker' in that way)...and this included stabbing his rival, in that garden...and i am assuming here, that his arch-rival would have been dervla...you see all three knew each other rather well...dervla, col the sol and rickson - and from way back...i suppose that the irish nazi party would have been the uniting factor...see previous notes.

....and who had been running rickson to do the above - at the time? none other than that 'old snake in the garden'...steve jobs.

anyway, normally i love looking at gardens....but let me tell you this...i could feel my anxiety levels rise...after watching the first presentation of a 'very english garden' on the dvd...and after the second...i wondered if i could continue to watch the rest of it...and therefore had to steel myself, in order to do so...of course 'after the event'...you think "it's all silliness" but until you have dug up what was pressing your 'panic button'...well it remains in your subconscious mind - where it can do a lot of harm. suffice to say, i wouldn't like to visit any of those gardens, ever.

"derek jarman knew what it was all about" replies BI ONLINE.