nell and her oranges, was to come up this morning...in relation to roz...in 'amy - little women alter'...i have no idea why...nell...and moll flanders...'moll and her oranges' was the 'thing'...but why?

all i can remember is making her former boyfriend 'colin' (not 'col the sol' - the other one) laugh...with my 'memory aid' along the lines of:

"hey, it's BIG AMY....BIGAMY..." pointing to roz....

i can now remember why...richard harris had turned up at H house, in totnes...at some point - whilst we were still students at dartington...told the grieved roz that he would 'marry her' instead....wasn't the father better than the son?

after that ill cult ceremony...roz was as happy as a 'cat that has got the cream'...she had been reprogrammed as 'moll with her oranges'...and what did that mean?

i have no real idea...only something around that 'orange satellite'..."selling oranges" i.e. zygote slaves (see previous notes upon tony green smirking, whilst referring to 'that one' - having just given a speech about 'axing jobs' at acorn villages ltd)...

.....and something that rimington was to tell me about having been programmed as a 'moll flanders/nell with her oranges' herself....

you see...as a woman, you got all of the benefits but none of the hardship....i.e. you were a 'mistress' for life...as well as being a 'miss-tress of the networks'....and as a 'queen bee', you got to 'plant your eggs in other women's wombs'...but you didn't have to bring up the children, yourself.....

in short, the wives 'went mad' bringing up a brood ma's surrogate children...and although the wives tended to try to 'present' as normal...i.e. they tried to 'present' a 'happy family' front....in the background....they were getting hooked on pills....either prescription ones or 'street stuff'....

....my mother was to tell me, on the phone - yesterday...that she had started to take 'high blood pressure pills' in her 40s....my mother had had two big SIS experiments lumbered onto her - and nurturing 'SIS experiments' RH and ingabot, was to turn out to be a full-time and 'all-consuming job' - whilst she also attempted to look after 'two of her own', at the same time (ed faded into the background,as the youngest, of the family - whilst i used to 'hold my own' as much as i could - as the eldest child)....go figure....and yes, i was 'in trouble' for that one - alot of the time...i.e. interfering with the nesting and nurturing, of two SIS experiments...was not allowed....and i was punished for 'that one' again and again.

...do you see how it goes? i wonder how my parents can put up with any of it...'happening again' in relation to yet another generation...their so-called grandchildren - see previous notes....

but if you watch THE DAISY CHAIN then you 'get it'....that poor misunderstood child...see previous notes.

my only complaint about 'that type of horror movie'...is that - well, at some point - we have to start making movies which divulge 'the truth of it all' at the end...the real reason for 'all of that horror'....the scientific truth that demystifies 'all of it'....

i mean to say...you call a horror movie THE DAISY CHAIN...that is a MKULTRA/dr mengele reference...do you see what i mean?

OTHER NOTES:

...and if i were to go further than the above...i would say that 'one scene' in HOLLYWOODLAND typifies the whole 'comic-tragedy' of MKULTRA programming....in relation to 'little girl alters' for boys....

...that 'little girl beauty pageant'....where the 'grandfather' watches his little grandson, pretending to be a girl 'on stage'...pole-dancing...to then get on stage and 'shell' his grandson with dollar bills...to the consternation of the mothers and their 'real little girls' in the audience....

...the idea being? "have those mothers no idea of what they are doing to their little girls?" replies MI5 ONLINE...."by making them perform, 'in that way'....." - go figure.

...well they don't seem to have 'any idea' do they?

....the whole 'set-up' reminds me of sue whalley and her mother....amadeus was to warn me about 'sue'...."she's not like you - she's entirely feminine"....i had no idea what he was talking about (apart from the fact that 'sue' was almost entirely obsessed with makeup and clothes) - but perhaps i do now?...'feminine enough' to attempt murder- because she had figured wrongly, that her current boyfriend loved me, 'more than her'....well, what sort of 'femininity' is that?

"he was another one of her possessions - like her make-up case....all of her accessories" replies BI ONLINE.

....and we are back to RH complaining about his wife 'cielo' for 'getting it' in relation to a 'condundrum' LAPD test...set to catch out 'psychopaths'....see previous notes upon 'that one'....

"cielo got it right away - what does it say about her?" RH was to grin...although he was looking rather alarmed, at the time - and he was to repeat the question several times.....to no real answer, from myself or my parents.

...and in retrospect - all i can say to 'that one' is "that's your problem".