OTHER NOTES:

...a few oddities that don't really fit anywhere...

firstly the FBI ONLINE were to tell me, to remember that...MI5 toby had told me - that i had to remember as a matter of the greatest importance...that FLAT 8, BELLE COURT would be a real problem, at this point in time...in relation to DAWN OF THE DEAD but i cannot remember how or why, as yet...additionally i have no idea who is living there...only that it is on the same floor as donna's flat...

OTHER NOTES:

...next up....gill was to admit openly, that all joos - were programmed as 'zombies' who ate human flesh...they all had that 'zombie/cannibal alters'....the ashkenazim and the sephardim....

"if i don't talk about it - how can it ever be cured - if nobody recognises the problem?"

"pissing in the wind" replies the CID.....well i don't know...as a member of the sephardim - gill had become 'self-aware' of his programming predicament....how many of them followed his suit?

i would guess that portillo and his wife....were 'close runners' behind.

in fact, i can remember 'true-blue portillo' saying about ed miliband "one in the eye for you" vindictively as in 'take that'....
....so not that much 'solidarity' behind joos?, somebody then asked....to then be told by portillo that 'solidarity' was a polish anti-communist concept but 'probably fashioned by the communist poles for all i know'....yes, portillo was handling his post-dinner glass of whiskey carefully whilst 'getting into that number'...in relation to 'who do you really trust anyway?' (see notes upon my father and the taschmanns)....

....although i am sure that the 'next morning'...he was 'as right as rain'....smiling or 'grumping' to his wife....in the usual manner - without too many thoughts of the after-dinner conversation - which had  been foremost in his mind, at the time of waking....and what do i mean by 'that one'? well you know ....the usual scenario for 'those who drink a bit too much' in terms of....how you then wake up, afterwards - thinking 'what did i say?' whilst trying to suppress the lot of it? i don't think that you should defend it...you should allow 'context' in....where did it come from....'understand and encompass it'...from your own psyche....learn how to 'see who you really are'...'doctor heal thyself'.....

 His wife, mary - is of course a 'saint' and she would have to be....bringing up his boys, whilst making sure that her husband is 'as he wants to be - and she wants him to be'....putting up with....well, hell...MI5 all know that portillo was and is still a 'pretty boy'....but with a 'bit more brought to bear' than farrell....a pretty boy that had decided that he wanted a decent wife, a decent family, a decent home....a decent living....well did it all work out? 'investment banker' doesn't sound like the 'right credential' (as he says in the last episode that i was to watch - involving 'HAT programming for investment bankers') but anyway....

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next up...i was to remember my father at 14 st bernards road in the early 70s...he had what looked like an 'antique computer' nowadays..."something out of the dark ages" replies MI5 ONLINE...and just about 'every computer script in existence' in book form, at the time...and all of those computing books were in stacks, up by the wall of his tiny study, at the front of the house...the room that tomlinson was to use 'now and then' see previous notes...in 1980.

my father had ploughed through every single one of them...why?

let me explain....somebody from BI was to call on my father during that period..."it was MI5"....to tell him not to trust the taschmanns (of his generation and also 'those' later on)....well, that makes perfect sense now - because the 'taschmanns' had murdered his father in a NY hotel but anyway....my father was to reply something along the lines of "i would trust them with my life" - to be told that he would then end up dead and so would his family...and that member of MI5, would also end up dead...in fact, it was inferred that 'the whole service' would 'end up dead', in relation to the taschmann threat - if my father continued to trust them...

....you see - the 'taschmanns' had been carefully chosen and groomed to be 'superhuman robots' in relation to the 'incremental' - i.e. loads and loads of increments to their chips...and then run by the british royals as "their superior bodyguard" replies MI5 ONLINE...."and fenmen"....

....why is the term 'fenmen' important?

"aquatic"....well yes i know the old stories about fenmen (webbed feet etc) but how does that fit in?

"navy/naval seal alters".... i still don't get it but maybe i'm being a bit dense....you mean the 'seal on a drum with a ball on its nose'? that type of thing? "that's generic seal programming - navy seal is 'more advanced'"...more advanced in what, precisely?

oh i see what you are getting at now....

anyway, let us now go back to my father at his 'antique computer' in the early 70s....he had read through and 'understood' every book....as far as any computer script can be 'understood' that is - because it is mainly arbitrary notation ...."(he had gone through) everything in operation at the time" replies MI5 ONLINE "your father was looking for cross-references between scripts"..."for the taschmanns to then turn up - and steal the lot - add it as an 'increment' to their chips and then memory-dump him"....

....all of his work - for nothing?

"he can still remember a bit of it"...

so MI5 were quite right about the taschmanns and my father was a fool to trust them..."a good man who got sent to the bad, by them"....oh you mean the whole inga/ingabot/RH saga...."there's more to it than that"....yes i have glimpsed 'some of it' but not everything...mimi and her husband philip sanderson were involved - weren't they? "the worst of the lot - corrupted robots"....

...and i was a fool to trust the GAF, in kind?....my own 'challenge' within my own generation...something like that?

"jacqui carroll was to help you out after all you had done for her - she was to find out about farrell"....

yes i can remember cleaning jacqui and jo's flat out - and from top to bottom after what roz and jo smith had done to her - see previous notes...to get the 'filth and sickness' out of her life 'upon a daily basis'....jo smith and her liking for 'filth' - no longer felt 'at home' in that shared flat, after that one - did she?

anyway, jacqui was to laugh at my proposal 'to clean out the filth' in that flat - and upon a very territorial level - she understood that even if i couldn't clean out what the ill had done to her- regarding their torture of her, in order to try and induce an abortion...it somewhat lifted her out of her depression...after listening to me - she then told me that a woman who 'cleaned' now and then - lived below, in one of the other flats...she had a bucket and everything that you might need....her flat was a large one - much larger than the one that i shared with jade laing (i.e. a living room and a proper kitchen and bathroom)....

after cleaning that flat up - and it took a morning....from about 8am until nearly 2pm.....i was to tell jacqui to say to the ill i.e. VARRO's camp - that it had been 'her' who had cleaned that flat out and not myself - MI5 were backing me 'on that one' - they were to tell me to look after jacqui because she was their best 'information operative'...and so i was to tell jacqui that we had to show the ill, that they hadn't broken her...she was coming back with a vengeance...i can remember her 'telling me all about it' the whole horror...as she sat and sipped tea, at her living room table...dipping into my cigarettes now and then "i don't have money, emily - no money for anything" - as i set to work...cleaning, dusting, scrubbing vacuuming, polishing 'everything'.

I can remember Jacqui laughing as I opened the door of the bathroom...see previous notes upon MI5 'dealing with that one' in the end...it was indescribable...it was as if...well I was to say to Jacqui...it was like an outside toilet upon a main road 'somewhere' in the Balkans (see previous notes upon that coach trip to Greece 1979)...I cannot remember where exactly but the smell....even as you began to approach the building...and everybody on the coach wanted to go...we all had the 'runs' at that point in time...some people decided to go in the bushes instead (for fear of throwing up if they went inside)...so I simply went out and bought disinfectant sprays and sprayed everywhere (faeces on the floor, the walls etc)...to take away the smell...managed to open the window at the back - and then cleaned the toilet seat...to then tell MI5 that you needed 'protective gear' to do that bathroom...see previous notes upon that TREAP entry...after the whole place had been 'pulled out', cleaned up and redecorated. I wonder now...at that point in time, Jacqui and I were both living with 'the flatmate from hell'...see previous notes upon jade laing...almost 'prisoners in our own flats'...

...jo smith then came home...i can remember that one...a 'wild-eyed look'....eyes bulging, almost out of their sockets.....at the 'cleanliness everywhere'...jo then threw down her rucksack, upon the living room floor and then made a run for it...out of the flat frontdoor and down the stairs - out of the house frontdoor and off down the street....MI5 toby was to state later on "did she think that she was an animal living in the wild - was that the reason? her natural habitat had been disturbed?".....to much laughter later on - at toby's 'mild guess' as to 'what had been really, really wrong - with jo smith' according to the FBI.

"particularly after you two (jacqui and myself) had removed her oil painting of her aristocratic family home from 'pride of place' to insert jacqui's pre-raphaelite poster of OPHELIA" ......in the now - 'oh-so-clean' living room....

....so run that by me again...what was it about 'ophelia' that used to 'get' jo smith? "drowned in the bath" by malcolm "so many times"...."until she didn't want to wash anymore" is the answer.

...and so what had jacqui overseen and heard? simply this....a conversation between farrell and gill at H house - along the lines of public school boys 'all pulling together'....and according to farrell - i was 'excluded' from their 'level of society' because......despite being 'middleclass and a doctor's daughter' - i hadn't been to 'the right school' and i wasn't 'right in the head' - because i wasn't a satanist.....go figure.

"well we always knew that farrell had more than one screw loose - the point is - did gill?" replies BI ONLINE.